Davekat Oneshots

He Doesn't Love You.

Pov Karkat
I sit on the cold and hard bathroom floor, looking to the wall as my hands are gripped into fists. I feel tears continuously fall down my face as dark thoughts run through my mind.
Gog you're so pathetic. You can't go one day without breaking down like this. You never do anything right- go figure so many people hate you. Just because someone made some stupid comment on how you looked. Poor Dave has to put up with you. You probably drive him insane. He doesn't love you. It wouldn't surprise me if he hated you. The only reason he dates you is because he pities you. He knows if he leaves you'll basically starve or cut yourself to death. You have no purpose. P a t h e t i c.
My sobs grow louder as my anxiety eats me up. I feel so stupid. Just one comment- only one- can make me break down like this.
I'm so insecure... I imagine I drive Dave insane with how much I vent to him. He has to deal with my constant depression and the amounts I try not to eat or how I try to cut.
I've always had the fear that he only dates me out of pity. I really don't want that thought to be true- I know it's not true... Dave wouldn't do that... He's told me multiple times how much he loves me-
I reach over a couple of tiles on the floor before gripping onto a sharp cold blade.
Do it. Just cut yourself already. Show how weak you really are. If anything- just kill yourself. Do everyone a favor- do Dave a favor so he doesn't have to put up with you anymore.
I feel my thoughts conflict throughout my mind.
Don't. You're stronger than this. Don't let anxiety beat you. Don't let your insecurities get to you. Dave loves you. So many people love you. You've been clean for a month. Don't ruin that.
"I can't- I can't- I caN'T!"
I throw the blade across the bathroom and it hits the wall. I burry my head into my hands and continue to sob.
"What's w-wrong with me..? Why can't I get better- Why am I like t-this..?"
I hear my phone buzz and I reach up to the sink quickly thinking it must be Dave checking on me.
Dave never left me home alone for more than 3 hours to the most- He knew how I would start to act when I let my thoughts get to me. Since it has been so long since the last accident he thought it would be smart to give me a little more trust and leave me home for a few more hours while he went out and did a few things.
I thought I could do it- I know I can do it. Dave's trusting me and I don't want to let him down.
I look over my phone screen, returning to the floor.
+1 702-682-7352
'He doesn't love you.'
My eyes widen as I look at the screen.
"What the -fuck..."
My heart speeds up as I look over the number not recognizing it.
He doesn't love me..? Dave..? Who is this? Should I respond... No... I wouldn't want to waste some strangers time. Ha... Maybe this is a sign. Maybe he doesn't love me. Who would..? I'm useless. I only get in the way.
I set my phone to the ground as I grip my hands through my hair trying to keep a calm mind.
Breathe... Just breathe. Do what Dave taught you. Inhale. Then exhale. He'll be home soon. Everything will be ok. Don't let negative things like this get to you.
I tried to think happy things- resisting the urge to just cut into my skin and letting myself bleed out as my body went numb and I slowly faded away from the world.
I shook my head back and forth standing up quickly. I paced around my bathroom for a few minutes before I picked up the blade and looked at it.
Don't- Do not- You're stronger than this. It's not worth it. Just wait for Dave to get home- He'll comfort you. He'd be disappointed knowing you even had this. Just- Just-
I fiercely threw the blade into the trash can.
"No- nO! Not today. I will beat this! I am strong and I'll made Dave proud."
I grabbed my phone off the floor before storming out of the bathroom not looking back. As I exited the door slamming it shut I felt a breeze of cold air push past my body sending shivers through my back.
Once I tucked my phone into my back pocket I walked down the stairs and went to lay down on the sofa.
I flicked on the tv and decided to curl up into some blankets while watching romcoms. I peaked over to the time and took note that it was 1:34 and Dave would be home in about an hour or so.
When I was layed up against the corner of the couch with a couple of blankets and pillows I looked over to the screen trying to calm my injured mind.
After watching the movie for a few minutes I slowly started to drift to sleep.
Everything will be ok... Sleep now.
Pov Dave
I let out a long sigh as I close the door to my truck. I was gone for awhile... Karkat should be ok. He didn't answer my calls earlier.
Calm down Dave. You trust him. Keep that trust. Karkat didn't do anything bad while you were gone. And if he did you're going to be there to help him get better.
I shake away my thoughts as I approach the front door to the house. Slowly, I unlock the door and open it not wanting to wake Karkat if he was asleep.
I enter the house and gently shut the door, slipping my shoes off, then setting the keys on the kitchen counter.
"Karkat? Baby I'm home!"
I walk around the house searching for Karkat-
I check the bathroom- Not there... The bedroom- not there.
Once I enter the living room I see the tv is on and Karkat's curled up on the couch, sleeping- snoring softly.
"Aww... Oh my gosh I have the cutest boyfriend."
I approach him slowly, quietly sitting down next to him. I look at his face to see dried up tears and I gently go to check his wrists.
Nothing... Clean...
I smile softly...
"I knew you could do it."
I brush his hair out of his face before I pull him into my lap and wrap my arms around his small body.
"Sleep well my kitten."
I kiss the top of his head sweetly
"I love you so much-"

A/N oOoOoOoOooOoFffFf! Welp. Holo there children. Wussup. It's ya boi- Randal here- WhOoP- Uhhhhh so this was actually going to have a really depressing ending but my babe wanted a happy kinda cute ending sO yEa ThAnK mY lOvE- Lolll hmpf I wanted to give you guys something happy anyways since I do have some sadstucks already- I dunno this is like- kinda sadstuck-ish... ANYWAYS IM CURRENTLY STUCK IN A CAR FOR ANOTHER FOUR HOURS AND I GOTTA GO TO THE BATHROOM SO RIP ME. Road trips suck. R i p. M e. Hmpf. Until next time. I love you allllll. Stay amazing!!!
-Randal <3

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