The Sun Shines Brightest in June (Completed) gxg

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I didn't bother getting out bed unless I had to. It was one of my

bad days. Klara hadn't called me back yet. At this point my parents were

beginning to get concerned about me, but for once I really just didn't

care.

Later in the day, though, she finally did call.

"Hello?"

"Sadie! I'm so sorry!"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

I couldn't hide the anger in my voice.

"I didn't know how."

"Did you know last summer?"

Pause.

"I suspected I wanted to go away, but I thought that I might

change my mind." When I didn't say anything she continued. "College is

so freeing, Sadie. It's nothing like high school at all. I found myself

again. I feel like things are starting to fall in place for me. I enjoy the life

that I'm living here. I realized that going away to a university, away from

home and my parents, would make things even better. I like being on my

own."

"What about me? What about your life with me?"

Another long pause.

"I love you, Sadie. I always will. I just... I don't think I love you

the same way that you love me."

The words stung. This was it. We were over.

"Klara...."

"I'm really am sorry, Sadie. Honestly. I'll admit that running

away from the confrontation was a problem, but I just didn't know how

to tell you. I didn't know how to let you know without hurtig you."

"So you left me."

"Well...."

"That hurt even more, Klara." I took a deep breath. "When did

you know?"

"When did I know?"

"Yes. When did you know that you didn't love me the same way

anymore?"

She sighed.

"When we met Jason."

Jason. The boy who had pretended to be Erik. The... boy.

"You're not gay."

It wasn't a question, more of a statement.

"Yes."

Silence on both ends of the phone. I didn't know where to go

from there. I felt like my whole world was crashing down around me,

and I was suffocating underneath the debris.

"I want to be your friend still," Klara said at last. "I don't want to

lose you.

"I don't know, Klara. You really hurt me."

"I didn't mean to."

"I know, but you did. You could have just told me. IT would hve

been a lot better than leaving me. I wondered for the longest time what

had happened to us, why you seemed to be growing more and more

distant as time went on. I didn't understand what had gone wrong. It

didn't feel like anything had, and yet here we were, drifting apart."

"I'm not proud of my actions. I regret my choice to leave you the

way I did. I was stupid, naive. I didn't take into concideration the pain

that could have caused. I somehow thought it would be better than saying

all of this to your face. I can't apologize enough for that."

Klara was as sweet as could be, and it was evident in her words.

Although I was still very much in pain, I could still tell that she sincerely

meant every word she said to me.

"I'll have to think about things for a bit, okay? I need time to sort

out my feelings."

"Of course."

"I'll talk to you later, alright?"

"Sure. Bye, Sadie."

"Bye."