Struggles Of Being His Princess® (Completed) Book 1

chapter 34

Cassie's POV

I open my eyes and it hurts to move them, they feel heavy but I look around and I land my eyes on Jason who's sitting next to me holding my hand. Wearing a black sweater and he's eyes looking all puffy.

What is going on here? Why am I... Oh my Gosh I'm in hospital but why, I've got all these questions swimming in my head wanting answers I don't have.

"You're awake" Jason says as he tightens his hand on mine

"You're crying, what's wrong?" I ask getting worried now

"I'm not, I was just worried about you that's all, I'll go get the Dr" he says as he stands and walks out

I wonder what is wrong with Jason I mean he's been crying, Jason never shows weakness not ever so why now?

The Dr and Jason walk back in. She's an elderly woman, she seems sweet with a warm smile on her face.

"You're awake, I'm Dr Evans. How are you feeling? On my side everything seems fine you'd be good to go I'm sure after forty eight hours." she smiles but its a fake one I could tell

"That's great, Umh Doc how long was I out and why am I here?"

"Two days, you were out for two days. You know Miss my other patients take longer than that. so you really don't remember the reason why you're here?"

"No. I wish I did Doc" I reply trying to remember but I come out blank

"Jason what happened?" I asked looking at him standing behind the Dr

He comes forward and takes my hand he's eyes looking everywhere but me.

"Babe you fell, from the stairs remember at home?" He says as he gets teary again

"I fell?, but I was working how could I have been to your..." Oh my gosh no I remember

"You came after work, you..."

"I remember, Jason you slept with her. You were in bed with her." I tried blinking away tears remembering the scene I saw on his bed before I fell

"I'll leave you two to talk" Dr Evans says as she left us to talk.

"Babe, I'm sorry. I didn't ..."

" I fell right after what I saw, how's my baby?"

Jason doesn't answer me, he just looks up to the ceiling and says

"Fuck" he hides his face with both his hands "princess this time around I fucked up"

"How's my baby doing Jason?" I ask with tears rolling down my face, my heart starts to beat so fast like it's gonna stop, something isn't right.

" We lost him, our son is no longer with us. I'm sorry baby I'm so sorry "

He says as he takes my hand again but I pull it away from him, tears rolling down my face.

"I'm sorry babe, I'm ..." He tries again

"My baby is gone, My baby is gone. My baby is gone" I kept on repeating those words and tears running down my face. I felt my lungs closing in

Jason tried to hold me I pushed him away and kept on saying the same thing...

"My baby is gone, my baby is gone. I don't know for how long I was like that until Jason went out and came back with Chloe, seeing my best friend it made things worst and I knew this wasn't a dream and I just lost it.

I cried so much that Jason left the room and Chloe sat next to me holding me tight, telling me she's sorry it's going to be okay. To be honest I doubt it will ever be okay. It will never ever be alright.

"I'm sorry Cass, I really am" Chloe says quietly

"He's gone Chloe my baby is gone" I tell her

I cried repeating the same words asking why me, why my baby?

"I really am sorry Cass"

I don't say anything for the longest time I think an hour passed before I spoke again

"Don't be, you didn't do anything Chloe" I say

My voice was very strong and I didn't have tears anymore. I guess I was done crying, who was I crying for.  My baby is gone he's not coming back.

When my son died, the Cassandra Monroe people knew died with him.