Unexpected Love

Ch. 16 - We Gotta Change

Carru

Ever since Shena fainted in my arms on Wednesday I've been going crazy. I can't stop worrying about her. I kept wondering how she's doing. I don't know how I managed to focus on the match on Thursday. Maybe it's because Dre kept telling me to keep it together.

I've never felt this way about anyone before. I don't even understand how I'm feeling. It's just weird to me how I'm suddenly having emotions. How I suddenly started caring about people and their feelings. How I even realized that I have feelings.

Ever since I met Shena something in me changed. I don't know what or why but she makes me wanna be a better person. I've dumped all the girls I've been flirting with, I stopped torturing people, heck I'm even behaving in my classes and I never use to.

Today when I talked to her on Saneke's phone I was so happy that I finally get to hear her voice. She sounded much better than on Wednesday and she said that she was. I'm just happy to know that she's okay.

I can't wait for this weekend to end so that I can see her again. I'm going crazy over the need to see her again.

"Yo lover boy! Where yo mind's at?" I heard Jake shouted interrupting my thoughts. Marc and Dre laughed.

"Ha ha ha. Yea, real funny", I mimicked their laughing.

"You've been high up in the clouds ever since Shena got sick", Marc said.

"So what? I should be happy that she's sick? Is that what you want?" I asked harshly.

"Nah bro. Chill. I'm just saying you seem to care about her a lot. And we don't have feelings last time I checked", Marc said.

"Well maybe it's time we start having some. I don't know about you guys, but I'm getting bored of torturing people. Do y'all even realize what we're doing?" Dre said.

"When Shena fainted in my arms on Wednesday I got scared. Scared! And I don't get scared ever! But do y'all know why I got scared? I got scared thinking what if something bad happened to her? I actually started caring about her. After that I've been thinking. Thinking about all the things I've done to our schoolmates in the past. All the things we've done. And I realize that we're wrong. We're awful for doing that to them. No wonder why Shena was so scared of me the first time we met in maths class. Because that's the image we put out. We make people fear us and I just realize that it's not cool. It's not cool at all. It's horrible", I said sadly.

"You're right. How could we be so heartless?" Marc said shaking his head.

"It's my fault. After my parents died, I grew angry and this is the path I took. I thought I could put out all the pain and hurt that I felt on everyone. That it would make me feel better. And because of that darkness I found comfort in it. I didn't even realize I was hurting people. And worst of all I drag my friends in it", I said.

"You didn't drag us in it bro we wanted to be in it. I know I did. I was angry that my father was an alcoholic so I put it out on everyone. It was wrong of me. I realize that now", Jake said.

"Yea. We all had a bad past. We all had demons pushing us to be so evil. Dre's right. I'm tired of the torturing and of our schoolmates hating me", Marc said.

"So what do we do now? Everybody hates us. Not that I blame them", Jake said.

"Now we rectify our mistakes", Dre said smiling.

"And how do we do that?" Jake asked curiously.

"By being nice", I said simply.

"Exactly", Dre said and we knock fists.