Good Taste (book 2)

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song for chapter: molly by lil dicky
{ cause even when I can't say love ya, i love ya }

[ ETHAN'S POV ]

Kelsey's right. I overreacted.

I keep letting my rage get in the way of everything. Why? I don't know.

Hearing that Jeff loves Allison and knowing that he's loved her this whole time pissed me off.

Then, hearing him say the shit he said about me and how 'I hated her when I promised to love her', that was across the line.

That was so damn low.

If he thinks I don't realize what a fucked up person I am, he's wrong. I know how bad I am, but I'm seriously trying.

I'm trying to support her. Be there for her. Love her through everything and through every decision she makes.

In my opinion it's working.

I just don't think anyone will every understand my love for her.

Everything we've been through, no one will ever understand how much she means to me.

My love for this one girl could never be put into words.

I'd die for her in an instant.

I'd got through the fiery pits of hell just for her to be able to have good day.

She deserves more than this world could provide.

Which means she deserves more than me, but I'm lucky enough to have her, so I would never give her up.

She's my fucking baby.

If I didn't go to that party that night three years ago, I'd still be that fuck boy that didn't care about anything except using girls for sex.

She changed me for the better.

I'm happy with who I've become. I'm happy with who she made me.

It's like an angel sent her to me.

My knuckle knocked on Grayson's bedroom door a couple of times.

Jeff slept over last night. Grayson made him stay in his room because he didn't know what I was capable of doing to him.

After a couple of seconds, Jeff opened the door.

His eyes landed on mine and immediately filled with annoyance. He tried shutting the door, but I placed my hand firmly on the center of it. "Jeff please."

He let out an annoyed grunt, "What Ethan?"

I licked my lips preparing to talk, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done what I did. I was just pissed."

His eyebrows raised quickly up-then-down. "Control your anger and it wouldn't have ever happened."

"I'm working on it." I admit honestly letting the guilt show through my voice.

He nodded his head while biting onto the bottom of his lip-I can tell he feels awkward.

"Can we at least talk about this Ally thing?" I suggested wanting to know more about this.

"What about her?" He acted confused.

Is he seriously doing this right now?

My eyebrow lifted testing him. "You know what I'm talking about Jeff. it's fine, I just wanna know some stuff." I shrugged my shoulders lightly.

He looked back into the bedroom seeing Grayson still sleeping. His jaw clinched as he shut the bedroom door. "Let's go downstairs."

I nodded watching him walk past me; me following behind him. We both quickly trotted down the stairs and walked into the living room.