S.O.S

11.Jay

I don't know what Amanda is trying to do but she needs to stop before i do something we are both going to regret. She is going to mess everything up. i have a big plans with eva and she needs to be able to trust me or my plans won't work.

Eva isn't casey. Eva is Eva. No matter how much i want casey back i need to realise that casey is gone..i can't cry about it becuase I'm the one that took away her life.

Eva is important to me and i really want her to believe that she is but Amanda just wants to mess things up. What if she tells eva all about casey..i bet that bitch will twist the truth and make me out to be a vicious killer.

That night i spoke to eva on the phone and she told me that Amanda was missing

"calm down eva she has only been gone a few hours"

"i can't she isn't picking up her phone and i don't know but i don't feel good about this."

"Are her clothes gone,has she left a note. don't worry im sure she will call soon"

"i don't think that her clothes are gone and theres no note but your right she will probably call me soon. i just need to breathe and calm down"

"excatly...now are you busy tonight"

"jay not tonight but how about tommoror. is something wrong?"

"no we can talk later"

"omg not you as well"

"what"

"well last time Amanda said we will talk later she never spoke about it again"

"well trust me I'm nothing like amanda"

"thank god..anyway i have got to go before my mum has a go at me again."

"bye"

she hung up and i pondered over calling amanda. i had a deep feeling she would pick up if its me but i don't want to talk to her. Infact i think i know where she is, when me and  casey got into a argument (which was alot) she would run away to her dads for like a day or two and then she would come back to me like a fool. I guess we were both idiots, i shouldn't have hurt her if i loved her but she shouldn't have returned to my dangerous hands.

Should i tell eva where amanda probably is hiding away or should i just keep quiet that way Amanda is out of both our lives for a bit making everything more easier.

the answer is clear,it's not like amanda is in danger. This is for everyone own good this way no one gets hurt since i know that Amanda and casey love their dad.

The next day i went to Eva's house since none of us was working today. When she opened the door i couldn't recognise her. her eyes were puffy and red as if she had been crying. her lips were dry and she has nothing on except a dressing gown. i walked in to hug her but she dodged it and walked away.

"baby whats wrong?"

"sorry its just she still hasn't come back and i think it's my fault"

"its not. please don't think that. i don't know why she is gone but she problably has a excuse for making you feel this bad."

"better be a good one"

i smiled at her and she smiled back her smile soon fell flat again.

"fine. i think i know where she is"

"omg seriously where is she?"

"i don't know why you even care about this girl but yh she is probably at her dads"

"i love her because she has been there for me since i met her plus we so much in common. how do you know she is at her dads"

i explained to her that i know amanda from stuff that's happened in the past. i didn't tell her what stuff excatly as she didn't look ready for big stuff like murder and affairs. I told her that casey was amanda sister and also my ex. She didn't look like she was judging me at all

"omg I'm so sorry to hear you lost your fiance. you must be devastated, did they ever catch her killer."

"ummm..yh...kinda"

"well i hope they do. i bet when they find the killer your gonna feel a huge relief and closure"

"yh.." i looked around avoiding eye contact.

"anyway what do we do now about Amanda"

i told her that i had Amanda's dads phone number and we called him.

After a short conversation he told us that he hasn't seen amanda for months and that he wants to know if Casey's killer was caught. i was surprised to find out that he doesn't know that it was me. i guess Amanda's mum didn't tell him anything at all, i don't even think they still talk.

"omg. okay no way she is lost"
eva started freaking out again. i convinced her to go and get herself cleaned up and she can go report her to the police. i couldn't go because to be honest the police are the last people i want to speak to.

"babe you go and i will cook us a great meal while your gone..i will tell you if i hear anything about her"

eva soon left the house. 30 minutes later i heard some rustling and footsteps. I picked up my nearest weapon (knife) and went to investigate.

"who is there...i have got a weapon" i shouted

"ooooo I'm so scared your gonna murder me with a butter knife"
i know that sarcastic voice. it was Amanda

"its just you..what are you doing here?"

"umm last time i recall i lived here"

"yh but then you also ran away. where the hell were you. eva has been worried sick literlly she is desperate to find you"

"how about you jay do you even care"

i grunted "not really"

"okay. well then eva has to get over me becuase im not coming back just yet. im not telling you where i am becuase im not dumb i know your gonna eventually tell her"

"fine.what are you doing here then"

"not that it's any of your business but i came to collect some bits and bobs like clothes,shoes ans accessories"

"why do you enjoy hurting others. amanda i promised revenge on you but i have seriously given up on that because your already a mess"

"wow..thanks for that. i don't enjoy hurting others but others hurt me so yh im sorry about that"  i hated how sarcastic amanda was acting. i gave up on her and told her to hurry up and leave before eva returned. she got her stuff in a bag and climbed back out the window she came in. i watched as walked away and got into a car...it was black Mercedes benz.

i swear she is so extra . i went down and continued cooking. Eva came in and threw her stuff

"apparently she has to have been missing for more than 24hrs. she has only been gone for like 16hrs or something"

"wow seriously that's so unfair"

"have you heard anything"

i thought for a second

"no..nothing. lets eat"
i plated the food and served it.

"thank you jay. i swear your too good to me it's like a don't deserve you." i chucked but deep down i was scared for her to discover the truth.

the ugly truth.