S.O.S

21.Eva

finally the day has arrived and in less than 2 hours i will become a married woman and get to spend the rest of my life with jay. I sat in my dressing room staring my reflection for once i was admiring myself instead of self loathing.then came a gentle tap at the door

"come in" i answered

in walked my mother

"i have a few things to quickly say"

"sure go ahead mum"

"sweetie im so proud of how far you have come. i know that your journey hasn't been easy especially considering the fact that i wasn't by your side when you needed me.  i didn't get you the help you deserved after you first started facing problems. I will never forgive myself for all i have done to you and all i haven't done for you. I just want you to know that i never gave up on you and that from afar i have wached you bloom into a independent young lady with such a beautiful heart honestly i used to believe you were naive but i see that you were just a broken soul with so much desperation for love that you let your doors wide open for any stranger to walk in and close them for you. I'm glad that jay was the stranger that walked in first because i can see you have become so much more happier and thats all that i wished for you darling."

before i knew it both of us were welling up

"mum jay wasn't the first to walk in amanda was and she the one that made me truly happy"

"baby im sorry but amanda is gone but you still have your family by your side and im supporting you all the way" she picked my head up and continued her speech

"today is so special and i need to make sure you have all the item to make the day better. so you have something old which is grandma's necklace,something borrowed which is your sisters bracelet,something new which is the earrings your aunty got you and finally something blue"

she pulled a shiny blue studded hair clip from her hair.

"i got it when i was marrying your father" i accepted the gift while wiping a tear that was falling down her cheek.

"thank you mum...im sorry for all the pain and headache i have given you. i love you"
she hugged me so tight that i didn't want to let her go

"okay well honey im going to freshen my face up so im going to leave you to it. i love you too"

before she left she placed a kiss on my cheek and closed the door behind her.

i sat their contemplating where i  should excatly put the clip as i wanted people to see it but i also wanted to make sure its secure in my hair as i didn't want to lose it.

Suddenly there came another knock at my door. this time the knock was gentle but it was sudden as if who ever was knocking had to tell me something urgently.

"come in"

"that hair clips look stunning"

i remember that voice i turned around to see amanda standing there,i ran towards her with open arms. I finally felt complete again and this wedding seemd like it was going to be the better than i expected

"omg what are you doing here"

"well a little birdy told me that someone is getting married..wonder why that person didn't tell me themselves"

"im sorry i wanted to but i couldn't i felt like you wouldn't care"

"what are you on about of course i would care its you"

"i thought you weren't coming because you didn't respond to your invite"

"i didn't get a invite so emily kindly offered to let me be her plus 1"

"huh..no jade wrote you a invite and then i told Maisie to-" i stopped realising what had happened. i couldn't believe that Maisie didn't mail amanda invite.

"its okay... im here now and thats all that matters"

"thank you for coming i really appreciate it"

"eva i have something to admit"

"go ahead"

"i wasn't with my dad"

"yh i know...i called him and he said he hasn't seen you for a while."

"what so you played along as if you knew nothing"

"well i didn't know what else to do, i thought you were angry at me so i tried to give you space anyway where did you go"

"i stayed with emily just know that i was never angry at you "

"then why did you leave" i felt my voice break down

"Because of jay"

"what did he do..did he hurt you"

"no worse...im going to tell you something i have wanted to tell you for so long it's literlly been eating me up inside"

"is it casey...oh yh im sorry but i went through your stuff"

"yh i know. when i came back i found casey letter all creased and the box was out of place"

"yh sorry about that"

"its okay..you better get ready"

"im ready and this time i don't care if the building blows up you have to tell me everything"

"okay well... so casey was jays ex they were engaged im pretty sure your wearing her ring the one he took from her dead body after killing her."

"what the hell are you joking"
she took my ring of and checked the inside to see the initials of C.A. she explained how that it meant casey-ann just like the necklace meant casey as well.

"his relationship with casey was becoming toxic and he became very violent. they fought day and night and finally one day casey built the courage to tell jay she didn't want to be with him anymore and he got mad so he killed her as he didn't want anyone else to have her. My ex boyfriend called bryan  also helped him dump her body in the river after this me and jay got drunk and i accidently slept with him. When the police told us she was dead they gave us a letter than turns out jay forged and in the letter he paints bryan as a rapist. bryan broke down and explained everything to me before finding out i cheated then he killed himself and jay used that as a chance to get the blame thrown on someone else so he told the police it was bryan and basically he got away scot free"

i couldn't believe anything coming out her mouth it was alot to take in no wonder she told me to get ready.

"also yh i did kiss jay that night when you asked"

"what the hell why did you lie"

"i don't know"

my breathing started to become heavy and my heartbeat was speeding up. my mascara was getting more messed up from every teardrop.

"Amanda so can you sum up your feelings for jay"

"I'm in love with him" she looked down

"your in love with you sister's killer"

She tried coming closing to comfort me but i just pushed her away.

"can you leave...i need sometime to myself. just go sit with the rest of the guest"

i didn't watch her walk away instead i broke down in tears not only was i in love with a monster but so is my ex- best friend