S.O.S

29.Ivy

How is Maisie acting like she has never seen me before she was the original person i spoke to before jade. she told me about Amanda's whereabouts and i just used it to figure out jays location as well.

I want him to suffer just like i did when i lost bryan. Now eva has been shot i feel less anger at jay...that doesn't mean i don't want him dead it just means that atleast i can get comfort from the fact that he is now suffering like me.

A full year after his passing the mourning had not run it's course. The heaviness was in my limbs as much as my mind. Things i used to find funny now only caused a deepening of pain. He should have be here to laugh with me, or at me, or just near me. He should be making his espressos in that damn expensive machine and complaining about how hard life is.

He should be gawping at pictures of me and making me feel better about myself . He should be protecting me from any guy i every liked But most of all he should be here to go out on weekends for shopping and finally to hug me goodnight.

I missed all that. Now there was just a graveyard, a stone that bore his name and his cold bones beneath the soil. I have never been religious but now I put all my faith in God to care for him and reunite us when my life is done. Nothing and nobody that good could simply disappear, he is waiting, i can feel it.

But before that i need to avenge him..he was a simple soul that was just too nice and sweet for this dark twisted place..especially with people like jay walking this earth.

why should he be happy while bryan is just gone...no im not letting his happen. This isn't over