"THOSE EYES.. FAINT GLEAMS OF RED, SIMILAR TO THAT OF A SPIDER AND
FIERY AS THE DEPTHS OF HELL."
"CRIMSON."
#1 in 'Inuyasha' (Aug 2022)
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Follow the story of Mei, a young demon who has been entrusted by her late father with a very p...
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It's been a little over month, and no Naraku.
Should I be worried? Should I be elated? Or should I just be and continue counting the days or counting the leaves that fall from the tree outside of my door?
Kagura has noticed me and my mood has been depleting as the days continue on. I choose not to eat as much; I just want to write in my journal. My journal is where I am safe and heard and here... I feel like I can process all of my emotions when it comes to what has been and what is going on.
I don't know if I miss Naraku. I don't know if I miss a male figure or... I don't know if my feelings for him are becoming as jaded as they are confusing.
I've been contemplating these words and they haven't made an ounce of sense to me but here it is.
I have feelings for Naraku.
I want to be close to Naraku
His absence is crippling me more than I thought.
I've been on my own for almost 5 years going on 6 and Naraku... protects me. As corrupted as he may seem to others and how disdainful he can come off as to other individuals, I don't see that. Maybe I don't want to see it; maybe I want to see a kind person. Maybe I don't want to believe that he is using me for some larger benefit and instead he... wants me here. I see how he looks at me; I can sense how intensely he watches me when I'm sleeping and when he watches me instead of Kagura.
There is some intensity there and i... I do believe that I want to find out what it is.
Listen to me. I sound like a naïve school girl who has a crush on her elder. How she finds his moral mystery enticing and she does all that she can to seem so mature to garnish his attention and lure him away from his inhibitions. How she wants to have a single moment under the moonlight and peer into those eyes that seemed like endless pools of wonder and intrigue and for once... she wanted to be recognized as someone more than a child.
She wanted to feel like a woman.
And I believe Naraku makes me feel like a woman and not like a warrior.
I want to be his woman.
I... I want to see him.
Where are you, Naraku?
There's something I must tell you, and you're nowhere to be found.
