fire | harry styles

n i n e

*SENSITIVE CONTENT, please read at your own risk as this isn't meant to offend anyone*

>> all stars are born in the dark <<

[ANGEL]

After breakfast I offered to help Johanna clean up but she wouldn't let me. We're both stubborn but I gave out first and decided to let her win this time. So instead I went back upstairs to take a shower like I had planned.

It was quiet when I reached the second floor and I wasn't sure if Harry had left already or not. As I made my way to my room my eyes found the spot where Harry had pinned me up earlier and I nervously bit my lip at the memory.

I closed the door behind me as I walked into my room. I made my way over to the large dresser and hesitantly opened it's door. Immediately my eyes landed on the most beautiful clothing I had ever seen. I let my hand wonder over the clothing while I carefully looked at them. The dresses ranged from casual to formal and everything in between.

I opened the door to the closet next to the dresser and became confused when I saw nothing but darkness. I started patting the inside wall of the closet until my hands came upon a light switch. I watched as a row of lights, down the middle of the ceiling, turned on making it easy for me to see the room.

My jaw dropped.

It was a huge walk in closet with different clothing hanging on either sides. Looking around I noticed that on the right side there's a couple of drawers separating two sections of hangers. On the back wall of the closet is a tall rack with a bunch of shoes resting on it. I had never imagined a closet like this.

I walked in slowly, turning my head, still exploring the large closet. After minutes of roaming around the closet I finally decided to pick out an outfit and get ready for the day. Not that I'm going anywhere.

I picked out a pair of black leggings, an oversized Boston band t-shirt, and a pair of underwear. I walked out of the closet while holding the clothing in my hand. I quietly closed the closet door behind me before making my way to the bedroom door.

I get out of my room and started heading for the bathroom across the hall when I freeze in my tracks. I practically stop breathing when an almost naked Harry is stand in front of me.

He's wearing nothing but a white towel tied dangerously low around his hips. I now had a perfect view of his torso. His body was toned and ink was scattered across his arms and chest. I couldn't help but stare at his tall, muscular body.

He was standing right in front of me, typing something on his phone, before he looked at me. His eyebrows were knitted together, giving off that intimidating look that made me shrink down. I quickly bobbed my head feeling ashamed.

"I-I'm sorry." I stammered.

He didn't respond and I didn't notice him move so I dared to look up at him. He was still in the same position only now his phone was off and he was giving me a smirk. I felt my palms getting sweaty and the grip around my clothes tightened. He knows exactly what he's doing.

We kept eye contact for a couple seconds, his smirk never leaving his face. It felt like forever before I realized I was getting lost in his emerald eyes. I slightly shook my head and cleared my throat just wanting for this moment to end.

"I was just going to take a shower" My voice came out timid.

His evil smirk faded letting his features tense up again. He only gave me a nod before finally walking off and disappearing behind his bedroom door. I mentally cringed at the sight of it.

I scurried into the bathroom, almost slamming the door and locking it. My breathing picked up as I was replaying what just happened in my head. I closed my eyes as the image of Harry in nothing but a towel was still fresh in my mind. I shook my head trying to get rid of any thoughts and mentally slapping myself. No.

I set my clothes down on the sink counter and began to undress myself. I slid off my underwear and unhooked my bra while examining my body in the mirror. I mainly stared at the bruises from earlier before past memories started haunting my mind again. I felt tears brimming my eyes and my body shake a bit.

I turned around and got in the shower turning on only the hot water. I let the hot water burn at my skin, turning red, while I felt myself emotionally breaking down. I couldn't help the tears that were now streaming down my face. I hugged my body tightly as memories from the orphanage consumed my thoughts.

I was playing barbie with Kaylee in the our brightly painted room. She was my roommate and first friend I made here since I arrived a couple months ago.

We were both laughing as she pretended that her doll tripped when one of the volunteers, that helped around the orphanage, walked in.

"Kaylee, sweetie? It's time to take you to the nurse for your cough medicine." Kenzie, her name was, kneeled down to our height wearing a sweet smile on her face. Kaylee nodded and stood up, taking Kenzie's hand. They were about to leave when Kenzie turned around, "We'll be back in a few minutes and then we can all go to the movie night, okay?" Excitement was laced in her voice.

I eagerly nodded my head before they both walked out leaving me alone in the room. I got up from the floor and walked over to sit on my bed. I started humming one of the songs my parents used to sing to me when I got scared in the middle of the night.

I continued with the sweet tune when I heard a knock on the door. I looked up to find the door slowly open letting a young man enter. He smiled at me and I returned the gesture.

"Hi sweetie, I'm one of the new volunteers here and Kenzie told me to come take you to the nurse for your cough medicine." There was something off about him.

I frowned. "But I don't need cough medicine, I'm not sick." I said shaking my head. "Kaylees the one who's sick and Kenzie just took her to the nurse." I pointed my small finger to the door signaling that they had already left.

His smiled dropped and his eyes darkened. I slowly brought my arm back down to my side as I nervously shifted in my spot. He turned around, locking the door behind him before facing me again with a smirk plastered onto his face.

He charged towards me and roughly grabbed my arms making it impossible for me to escape. He threw my small body back so that I was now laying down on the bed. Tears were already streaming down my face as everything was happening so fast and I couldn't understand.

He pinned me down onto the bed as I started squirming and screaming.

"No! Stop, please! You're hurting me." My voice was cracking and definitely not loud enough for anyone outside the room to hear.

"Shut up!" His teeth were gritted together as he laid his hands on me. My heart was slamming against my chest as I noticed him starting to lift up my dress. I tried moving around to prevent him from doing so but it was no use and he was successful.

My vision got blurry from all the tears and there was a pounding in my head. I felt weaker and weaker and I just laid there unable to move as he didn't stop. My fragile body was slowly giving out on me.

I've never been the same since.

I let my body slide down the shower wall as I covered my face with muffled cries escaping my lips. I let my hands tug at my hair as I shut my eyes tightly feeling absolutely nothing at this point.

The hot water was spilling over me while the air filled with steam making it foggy. I was already sitting on the shower floor for 30 minutes before I finally built up the strength to get up.

I rubbed my eyes and they burned from all the crying.

What did I ever do?

A/N :

woah, that chapter was honestly rlly hard for me to write and it was super intense. once again i wanna say that this chapter was not meant to offend anyone and i'm 100% against rape. this was just for the purpose of the story and actually an important part of the character.

- n.a.