Langst: One Shots!

Human

Lance's POV:
Lance has a secret he would never admit. He is afraid of the dark. Not so much of the dark but of dark things. Like his thoughts.
He covered his ears as he tried not to listen to the dark things his thoughts. He had just received a humongous, angry, mean lecture from Shiro and Allura. The others just sat there snickering. Now he was in Blue trying to calm down.
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My com beeped and Blue automatically answered it. Shiro's voice echoes throughout the cockpit. "Lance where are you?!" He sounded angry. I slowly crawled up onto the seat. "I'm inside Bl-" He cut me off. "WELL GET BACK HERE FOR TRAINING! WHY DO YOU THINK IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TIME JUST RUN OFF?!" I bit my lip to keep from crying. "I'll be there in a minute..." I quietly responded and ended the call. Blue purred comfortingly. I walked out and patted her snout, grateful for her.
*Training*
I just stood there as Shiro lectured me again. Then Allura. And as usual the others just laughed. I was lost in thought when I was suddenly slapped across the face. I stood there, frozen as I looked at Allura in surprise. "There. Now you oughta listen." Anger welled up inside of me. She opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off. Speaking in a harsh, cold tone. "No." She looked taken aback. "E-Excuse me?" I glared at her. "I said no." Shiro stepped up. "And why not Lance?" I scowled. "Because I'm done." Shiro bristled. "Done with training?" I shook my head. "No. I'm done with you guys. All of you." I pointed my icy gaze at them. I felt Blue trying to send waves of calmness but I refused. "What do you mean you're done with us?" I laughed at Pidge's feigned innocence. Like she didn't do anything. "You all are nothing but assholes." Shiro's grew red with anger. "Now you listen here Lance I wi-" I stopped smirking and started yelling, cutting him off. "NO! YOU FUCKING LISTEN TO ME SHIRO!" He took a step back. "I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOU ALL PUSHING ME AROUND LIKE A ROBOT!" I took a deep breath and settled down. "That's not what I am. But you guys just seem to think I have  no feelings. I do. I am human. I have emotions like all of you." I took my jacket off. "Now you all want to see what you caused?" They slowly nodded. I rolled my sleeves up to reveal bandages. I stared at their faces as I peeled the bandages off. Their faces changed from angry to shocked at the cuts on my arms. There were scars but there was also new ones. Ones that we're still bleeding. "Lance, why?" I gritted my teeth as anger starting flowing again. "Don't ask me why. You all fucking KNOW WHY!" I couldn't help yelling again. I just needed to get this out. Needed them to know before I did the thing I've been wanting to. "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT. ACCEPT IT. THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING. I'VE BEEN ACCEPTING THE FACT FOR YEARS THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THE USELESS ONE. THE ONE THAT FAILS. THE ONE THAT WILL SACRIFICE EVERYTHING FOR OTHERS. THE ONE WHO IS NEVER NOTICED FOR THEIR GOOD THINGS. JUST THE MISTAKES." Tears streamed down my face now. I screamed and yelled at them before stopping and shaking. "You never noticed my pain. You never noticed my attempts at suicide. You never noticed anything but my mistakes. I'm a mistake. So I wanted to do one last thing to silence the annoying buzz you hear every day. The only thing holding you back." I stepped back and pushed a button, separating them from me. I grabbed my bayard from off my belt and activated it. They all starting shouting. I smiled at them. "I'll give you the silence you need. I'll give you the relief of jokes like you wanted. I'll give you the absence you loved oh so much." I gave a watery laugh. I hefted the gun to my head, finger on the trigger. "Goodbye." I whispered. Then pulled the trigger. The bayard froze though. I dropped it as I felt my hand grow icy cold. The barrier dropped and they all ran to me. They wrapped me in a hug. They muttered their sorrys and guilt.
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So sorry about going silent for 3 days. See I went on this trip to San Diego and I didn't have any internet or access to Wattpad and I basically died. Anyways I'm back now so Peace ✌