Me and My Thoughts on Literally Everything

Let me elaborate.

Sometimes, you guys don't see all of what I write. Most of the time, when I write in this rant book, I write my general thoughts at that moment, but honestly, I write a lot more than that. Ask any of my friends in real life for proof. 

Speaking of friends, this year, I lost a bunch of them. I don't know why, they're all just...turning on me. And the sad part is, I have known these "friends" since my eighth grade year. I know that I don't need that many friends, and I really just need one person I can honestly trust, and I've found that one person that I can trust one hundred percent. I've found a couple like that, actually. 

But the fact of the matter is that when it comes to the matters of the heart, I'm a little guarded. I am, by no circumstance, naive, but the people that go to my school have a method of making sure they hurt people. They start by being all nice and sweet, and very friendly, and then, when they get what they truly want from you, they drop you faster than a flaming potato.

This has happened to me time and time again, and it seems that I can never quite distinguish between the genuinely nice people and the people like that. In fact, it's happening right now, right as we speak. This is why, in my other update, like half an hour ago, I talked about wanting adventure. I'm tired of being hurt like this, to be honest; I, for one, think that I don't deserve this.

I guess that's why recently in school, I've been acting as strange as I have, being as loud as I dared to. Because I'm tired of it all. I don't know if I've told you guys this, but all my "friends" look and act like I'm stupid. So I don't understand math and chemistry. So I don't always understand what to do all the time. So I don't have an A in algebra two and chemistry. But guess what? I have an A in English. I have an A in my med classes. I'm not stupid just because I don't understand everything I'm taught. And I've reached the end of my rope when it comes to how my so called friends treat me. Because at this point, I honestly know that I deserve better. That means a lot coming from me, considering I usually think I deserve what I get. 

I swear I'm a contender, just give me adventure, I will show that I'm not just the girl who writes. I have a brain, and yes, I write like I'm running out of time, but that's only because I feel like I'm running out of time to show people that I'm not dumb. I'm not simpleminded. 

Yeah, I like to fantasize a lot of things while making sure that I still know what reality is, but come on. Sometimes, it feels like the drama is just filling me to the brim with stress. I don't want to always be on edge like this; I don't think I could ever live the rest of my life like this. But what do I do about the people that treat me like I'm stupid? I can't start ignoring them, I wouldn't be able to do that. 

However, I know who I can trust now, and I know that they'll support me, not to mention that they don't think I'm stupid. I rant a lot on here, because here, I know people will listen, I know that they'll read this. You guys have seen firsthand that I'm not dumb. At school, no one really listens to me. They don't understand what I say, and they don't ever hear what I have to say. 

Gosh, this whole thing makes me want to bang my head on a table. 

This is all I have to say for now on the matter. 

A/N~while this is not a short story (duh), it is very true. it happens all the time to me, and i felt like not interrupting the whole thing to put in my own comments, so i saved them for now. People really do treat me like I'm stupid and its starting to make me wanna punch them. anyways, enough of that, if y'all have any suggestions for my short story book, let me know in the comment.