I can't do it. I can't pretend anymore that it doesn't kill me everyday not to see you. Not to get kicked out of third round together because of Gages smart mouth. I can't deal with all the fake people people anymore pretending they knew you so well. I need you ..I need my little brother back. I need the person I stayed up late talking to just so I didn't do something stupid. I need the reason I'm still alive. But your not and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm sorry Tony I'm so sorry I should've been there for you. You were always there for me I'm so sorry. I can't keep friends anymore ..I keep pushing everyone away and I don't know what to do anymore...I just wanna get a ways from everyone and everything but I can't without hurting people in the process...I can't do anything right ...it frustrates me to know that we will never have another uno game together that you Justin and Gage cheated at like usual. Ill never be able to try and make you smile and actually try . And be happy. Ill never stop missing you. No matter how hard I try to get over it it'll never work...your always gonna be in my heart ...so please don't forget me ...wait for me in heaven...have the Uno cards ready ill be there soon I love you Tony
Maddie Michelle Kalvig
