I'm sorry.. I know I haven't done this on here in a while but I've been writing in my journal a lot.. my boyfriend said you sound like an amazing guy. I've told him all about you. Tony he's helped me so much. There's days I can't even get out of bed because I know I failed you and it kills me.. but I try to make everyone happen. I make sure they know I'm ok... wanna know the truth? .. I'm not ok. I just wanna be with you wherever you are. I want my best friend back. I want our all nighters and long phone calls.. Justin seriously has helped me so much with all of this but some days like today are difficult to talk to others about. I hate it. I just want you back.. just thought I'd let you know I was thinking about you. I love you 💖
