Falling for you

|| Heartbreaker ||

Cami's POV

2 weeks. 2 weeks since I had last seen Ian, specifically since I had broken up with him. He could never know the real reason I did so.

My heart didn't feel the same anymore, I simply didn't love Ian anymore. I told myself, and Ian, that I just didn't think this relationship was best for us and our career. We both wanted something different. No, well yes but no. I didn't want the life Ian wanted but the true reason I broke up with him, was because I think I'm falling in love with someone else, who so happens to be my love interest too, on Riverdale, kj.

Ever since we started filming Riverdale, I could feel it, the spark I once felt before, with Ian. Except this time it was stronger, and harder to ignore. It's been over a year since we've meet and things have escalated from there. Fan accounts. So called "Kjmila" accounts, a ship name for kj and I. Pictures and rumors of us dating and our "chemistry" was supposedly too real. So real that even Ian saw it.

"Cami, you know I love you...but do you even love me? Is this all fake? Is this relationship a game for you? What are we anymore Camila!" Ian stammered. I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. I felt that if I spoke I would say something I would truly regret because at that moment I was vulnerable. I didn't know what I wanted, maybe I was too into the moment and didn't really like kj like that, right? After a brief moment I finally spoke. "Ian, this isn't what you think. Kj is my love interest onscreen, not in real life can't you just understand that? I can't just quit because you want me to. I'm an actress for gods sake! Deal with it!" I yelled. Oh no, that came off the exact way I didn't want it to. "Camila I-" Ian started saying as he paced around in a circle. "Camila I don't want to break up, it's just hard seeing you kiss another guy the same way you kissed me I-I- mean it feels as if you actually have feelings for the guy" Ian let out. I stepped back, shutting my eyes, tears rolling down my cheeks. Ian still loved me and wanted to stay with me...but I didn't, and I don't want to be with him anymore. How could I say that without making it seem that I like kj? I honestly don't know if I do. Ian pressed his hand against my damp cheek, I gently put his hand down, I had to do it. I couldn't keep faking the feelings I don't have anymore.

Ian looked up at me, I'm sure he knew what was coming. "One thing I will never forget about you is how you always cared for me, and always put me before yourself," I started. Ian stepped back, trying to let something out but he couldn't. "Don't think I never loved you because I did, but I-" I shuddered, this was the most painful thing. "I'm done. I have to move on. I understand how you must feel but you just can't take it and I don't want to argue anymore...that's why I think we should just end it here." I looked up, Ian let out a few tears. So did I. "As much as I love you, you're right." Ian whispered.

That's how it ended. We said our goodbyes, and Ian looked up at me. "I love you" Ian said quietly. I couldn't say it back. Then he left. I could still smell his cologne.

I looked around as I sat on the couch, letting out a deep sigh. Memories flooded me and I was drowning in them. I closed my weary and tired eyes and wandered off asleep, not wanting to face the world in the morning.