Falling for you

|| Painful Love ||

KJ's POV

9 month time jump

"Cami, why do you have to be so sensitive? Get over it please."
I walked over to her sitting down, placing my hand on hers.

"Kj just leave me alone!" She yelled, snatching herself away.

Recently, Cami and I have been on edge. I'm not sure if it's because of stress from work, or if something else is going on and she isn't telling me. Sometimes, we can't even be in the same room because we'll argue and scream until our throats hurt.

And sometimes, I get a hurtful feeling in my stomach that she doesn't love me anymore.

And that's the worst feeling in the world.

To feel like the girl I love the most, care for the  most and so much more, no longer love me.

Problems would arise between us, and jealousy would come in and try and ruin us. Prior to this, we rarely fought. We'd get over it and hug and kiss and that would be the end of it. Sadly that isn't the case anymore.

Cami rushed into the hallway, as I ran after her. I grabbed her shoulder stopping her.
"Cami please. Talk to me."

Looking into her eyes, I could see my reflection in them. Tears streamed down her face, but her lips didn't move. "Please."

She cupped my face with her warm, soft hands.

I could sense something different. I felt something coming but I didn't know what.

"Kj you know that we've been in a rough state lately. I don't even know how it all came to this. First the fights...It broke me to sleep most nights crying in result of our fights. I'm sorry to have made myself the victim at times, and for causing most of our problems. I'm sorry you had to deal with me, because I'm such a mess, and you don't deserve that. You deserve happiness, something that isn't present in our relationship anymore. We've tried making this work but really? All we do is fight now. I can't even remember the last time you were smiling. I love your smile so much kj, it's one of the many reasons I've fallen in love with you. I've thought about this a whole lot. I never wanted for our relationship to come to this...I didn't want to make myself do this. But we-we need time apart. Kj? Kj please say something."

As her voice trembled, words barely coming out of her mouth, my heart broke.

I stared at her, tears wanting so badly to come out. I wasn't one to cry, I never did, but this made me want to cry forever. Cami stood there, her beautiful body trembling now as well.

Cami was done with me.

I never expected this. Yes we fought but I never wanted for her to go.

"Cami you-you-you can't leave, I-I love you and without you-"

My voice cut off as I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"I love you to death, that I would literally die without you." I spoke, cupping her face now.

"Kj don't say that! You're making this harder for both of us!" She cried.

"Cami don't do this, we can work this out! We-we can always do something else other than end us. We always work everything out baby."

I went out to reach for her hand, but she didn't take hold of it.

That stung.

"I know...we did. But this is different. This is best."

I couldn't hold it in anymore.

My body: hurt

My heart: shattered

"Are you really gonna do this? After everything we've been through? What about the show? Wouldn't this make it hard to film? How are you going to break up with me like this?"

"Kj stop! We're done! You'll find someone that will make you truly happy and that won't put you through everything I've put you through. Can't you see that I'm right?"

I didn't want to. If Cami was going to leave me I'd never be happy. I wouldn't be able to move on. I wouldn't be able to stand seeing Cami move on and be happy with another guy. I love her too much.

"This relationship is toxic." She ended.

"I'll pack my stuff and go."
She walked past me and opened our bedroom door. She began with the closet and stuffed her clothes in her suitcase. I watched in disbelief. Just yesterday, she was laying in bed and I could have never guessed she would leave in the next 24 hours. But she was.

As much as I wanted to scream and run, I didn't.

She finally finished and grabbed her extra stuff, like her makeup which was always perfectly put away in the extra room. She took her glasses which were always next to our bed. She took my heart, something I could never get back.

She stood at the door as I looked at her. She presumed to walk towards me and wipe her red and tired eyes.

"Thank you for the wonderful memories kj. Soon you'll make a girl as happy as you made me." She smiled lightly and opened the door.

"I'll miss you so much." I told her, my eyebrows furrowing.

"I'll miss you too kj." Her words came out softly.

I watched her as she walked away and towards the elevator. And soon, her presence was gone fully.

I went back inside and dropped to my knees. The tears came hard, and I couldn't get her out of my mind.

I would have never wanted this. She did and we couldn't have been together any longer that way.

Months ago, we were so happy. We loved each other and could never be apart. We've been there for each other when we needed it the most, and we understood each other like no other.

My life became so much more exciting and wonderful when I met Cami.

She made me such a happier person, she was the reason I smiled.

I love her so much, but now I've lost her and I can't do anything about it because she doesn't love me.

Even though she didn't specifically say she didn't love me, I could tell that was the reason why.

She had been so happy but then the fights became a regular thing.

The cast would invite us to go out with them and hangout, but we wouldn't go. Instead we'd fight.

All the memories flooded me, and my head hurt because of it.

Sitting there on the ground, bawling my eyes out, was all I could do.

She is an angel. She was the sweetest and most caring person I ever met. She was always up for anything, only if it made us both happy. She is beautiful, inside out, and now any guy could cherish that.

From the time that I first met her, to our first date, our first kiss, our first time having sex. From all the times we've laughed and snuggled. I could never forget it all.

Camila Mendes gave me love, but stole my heart.

What we once were, was like it never existed.

Author's note-
Yay this story is back! I gave it another shot, started writing, and this is what came out! From now on I'll be posting again.

I'm sorry I had to come back with a sad story but who knows what will happen.

Kjmila broke up💔 comment if you think they'll rekindle or if they'll forever move on.

I started another story while I was gone and it's a Varchie story! Go read it now along with my Kjmila social media story!

Hope you enjoyed, I missed you all💘

            - v 💗 xx