Falling for you

|| Why would you do this ||

Cami's POV

"What fuck are you doing!" I yelled.

Noah got up. "I can explain."

I looked at the girl, she had covered herself up, but it wasn't even necessary. I had already seen everything I didn't want to.

"H-how..." I stood there in disbelief. I didn't know what to think.

Noah came up to me and placed his hands on my shoulders. I pushed him away. "Leave Noah."

"Camila listen to me." He spoke.

"No! How could you bring a girl to my apartment? On my couch? You disgust me. Leave now before I kick you the fuck out."

Noah started putting his clothes on and so did the girl. She grabbed her keys. "I'll be in the car."

"Camila I-"

"I told you to leave didn't I?"

His face became serious. "I'm sorry I brought a girl ok? I'm barely sobering up now. But don't think I wasn't going to find out that you went out with Kj today."

I froze. "W-what."

How did he know?

"I was going to eat with a friend, like I said I would. Low and behold I see you with Kj eating so happily. How can you be mad at me Camila when you literally went out to eat with Kj without telling me?"

"I didn't owe you any explanations, and I still don't."

"What did you guys do? Did you make out with him and everything's better again? You were just gonna drop me for him right? Because he's so perfect and handsome right? Or were you not going to tell me and keep fucking both of us?"

"Stop!" I yelled.

"No. How can you be mad at me? You're such a hypocrite." He yelled.

I was scared. I had never seen Noah so mad. I was angry at him, but he also had a point. But I was too angry to reason with him, so I shot back.

"At least I didn't bring a girl back home to fuck her! This isn't even your house you dumb ass. And you can't be mad at me when we never dated."

"When I saw you with Kj I...I didn't know what to do. You made me think we had something camila. I don't just go around kissing people and making out with them."

"Who's the hypocrite now, you literally brought a girl home!"

"Because I was mad ok! She was with me and...and things just happened. I wasn't thinking. We were drinking and...then you came home."

I rolled my eyes. "I opened my home for you. I brought you to parties, I introduced you to friends, I let you stay with me."

"I'm guessing you don't just do that for any 'friend' right?"

I crossed my arms. "See Camila, you can't even say we didn't have anything. We have something. You made me think that. You came to me crying about how Kj had broken your heart, and I didn't immediately come to kiss you and hook up with you. You kissed me first. You started everything. I'm sorry that you made me think that maybe we were going somewhere just for you to see Kj again."

I kept quiet. Of course everything had to be my fault.

"I...I didn't mean to string you along. I just...you made me feel like I could go on without Kj. I was really hurt because I love Kj and when we broke up I couldn't handle it. I realize now that I shouldn't have given up on him. I'm sorry for doing this." I spoke.

"So you still love him." He dropped his head and just stared at the ground.

"Yes." I answered.

Noah walked away from me. He rubbed his head and was lint making eye contact with me.

"Noah." I called.

"Camila I need to go." He answered.

"Leave then, your pal is waiting for you." I was referring to the girl who was with him, and I'm sure she was getting inpatient.

He looked at me, and his eyebrows were furrowed. "I helped you and cared for you when Kj hurt you. I was there. I'm not surprised that you're dropping me for him now, and I knew I should've never gotten involved with you. I'll come back in a while, so don't expect me for a bit." He looked at me one last time, and walked past me slamming the door. I stood there in silence as I heard the car leave. I sighed loudly. I messed up, but Noah didn't have a right to be mad because we were never dating! I had to remind him many times. But unfortunately he was right about us kissing, but he can't forget he kissed me back. I had felt something when I was with him. As soon as I talked to Kj, I forgot about Noah.

Noah was also right about me completely dropping him for Kj. I used Noah, and in many peoples eyes Noah was my rebound.

I wanted to cry as I realized how horrible I had treated Noah. He had been there for me, not because I asked him, but because he wanted to. He treated me like I was the only thing he cared for. He didn't hesitate to help me with anything I needed...and I ruined that. He was going to find someone else, in fact he already had, and he was going to treat them just like how he treated me, maybe even better. Although he had brought a girl which wasn't necessary, I couldn't be mad. I should only be mad that he brought her to my apartment.

I walked to my room and I looked at myself in the mirror. I was disgusted at my reflection. I was disgusted at the person I was. Come on, leading on a guy for my ex? My ex I still loved? Yup, couldn't get any better.

I was exhausted. I got undressed and called it a night. Nothing in this world could make me feel better.

Ding

Kj- thank you for actually hanging out with me today, I appreciate it and I had lots of fun. hoping we can do that again, if you want. goodnight Mila.

I felt my face instantly turn to a slight smile as I read that. It was a simple text but I would've never expected it. I missed being able to sleep next to him. I didn't care what Noah thought anymore I missed Kj and I wasn't going to hide my feelings just because he told me I played him. I took everything back. I'm not a horrible person. I just don't care. I don't care if Noah comes back or he doesn't....wait. Let me not speak too soon. I still care for Noah because I'm not heartless, I hope he's ok. I hope he's having fun with that girl. I don't want him to be mad and I definitely don't want him to feel like a second choice, even though I had.

I take it back, something in this world could make me happy again. That was Kj.