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chapter 10 : Family time .

" so your saying throughout the 4 months you were pregnant there's wasn't any signs ? " she asked being snotty like always . 

" you think I'd be here asking you if I knew " I said with an attitude .

" well surprise , healthy baby and you're 4 months " she said trying to be funny , It took everything in my not to get up and smack this bitch .

" I'm leaving " I said getting up until Ash grabbed me and applied pressure to my arm . He gave me a look that always put me in check quickly .

" listen , I know it's the hormones but you have to not stress your self out with this baby . " she said and I already knew all of them . I'm a nurse , I just haven't been called in because there currently changing the whole bulldog around . It wasn't safe for us to be working their at night with the elevators stopping and the lights glitching ,  A lot of workers complained so did I . It was scary and uncomfortable for my patients to come there .

" I know , it's going to be hard but I'll try " I said looking up at Ash rolling my eyes .

" your next appointment should be next month the 1st , have a nice day Ash " she said walking out , He was looking back at her I knew they had something going on and I wasn't for it . He can't hit me in the office with people in here right .

" you fucking her too ? " I said looking at him and his face went from smiling to straight real quick .

" mind yo fucking business " he said pulling out his phone .

" who's panties were in our room ? " I said curious to know who was there when I wasn't . 

" The person you'd least expect it to be " he said giving off a evil laugh .

" what is that supposed to mean ? Are you fucking with bitches I know ? " I asked raising my voice .

" shut yo ass up for I kill yo ass in this doctors office " he said and I felt every speck of spit that feel from in between his lips as he talked . He pulled out his phone and took an picture me laying on the bed , I was completely annoyed and the way my stomach was feeling how couldn't I have know there was a full blown baby in their . For 4 months ? Are you kidding me .

He didn't even bother to take us out to eat or have some quality time with us , The true definition of a fucked up person . How dare this man come to get me last night and how does he even know where Kayla lives . I always kept her address to myself because I knew there was going to be times like this where I needed to go and have some time to relax and stay away from him and all the violence .

Now I'm bringing another human bean in this world by this nigga & the only think he cares about his name . Well I'm going to need for him to snap the fuck out if this rap shit and come back to reality . He has a women sitting here willing to stay not that I have a choice because he's ready to attack me when I attempt to leave his ass . I have to be strong enough for my son and eventually another one , If I show a sign of weakness they will think it's ok for people to control them and fuck them over .

I tell my little man all the time to treat women with respect , They are human also and you disrespecting them or making them feel less of a person is very sick and inconsiderate . Always care about others feelings even if they don't express it much . Never show any emotion around people because they take that as a easy way to push your buttons or hold something over you . The most important stay focused , If your mind is determined to do something don't let anything distract you . I was determined to be a Nurse & cosmetologist , No one stopped me from following my dreams and completing them . I always wanted to be able to buy my own shit and support myself & look at me now , I'm a business women now and nobody I mean nobody not even Ash is going to fuck me up to the point I give my career up .