S T R E N G T H

chapter 13 : God's Plan

I sat at the table praying with Jessie & Alex . We all sat for a family dinner , I told them my situation and we all cried together . Jessie told me how much it meant to her when I finally opened up after all these years . It felt like some stress of my back was gone , She told me the best thing I can do is fix my relationship with God before trying to fix it with Ash . She also shared memories with me about my mother that I never knew before , I truly needed this conversation and from this day forward I will not allow for Ash to fuck me up in the head mentally .

It was Sunday and god fulfilled the house , I confessed all my issues and layed them out on the table . Alex didn't say anything about her situation but I don't blame her it's hard letting out what you've held inside for so long .

I needed some soul food cooking and Jessie's house was the place to be . She cooked macaroni , baked zitti , collard greens , fried chicken ,  corn bread & many different pies for desert . Ash hasn't been home but he's the last on my mind . The whole time I was here it's been nothing but happiness , Jessie fixed me up and told me it was something minor . She had crutches and gave me pain pills . This was my only choice and she's been great . I was bandaged up but the pain pills helped a whole lot .

" so another one huh " I heard a voice say from behind me . It was Jessie's nephew , Me and him grew up together because we were the same age and he was always around being that his mom and dad was strung out bad on drugs . He hugged me from behind tightly .

" I missed you Bryan " I said grabbing onto his arms as he squeezed me tightly . He never met King but in pretty sure he's seen him in Instagram or tv the other day .

" you still with that nigga " he said and I knew he was talking about Ash .

" It's complicated " I said looking down at the ring in my finger that I should've been took off .

Bryan was locked up for about 10 years but he recently got out about 2 years ago . They wouldn't let him leave the state of Florida , He's a loose cannon . That man was bad asf back when we were little , Jessie would get calls from school almost everyday or a letter in the mail . When we first seen each other I hated him & I'm pretty sure he hated me , But Jessie  put us in check real fast and told us as long as we were staying in her house under her rules we must all have respect for one another .

Me and Bryan had a little moment were we did kiss , But it was all a misunderstanding and happened so wrong .  I mean we're not related but it's like we grew up together that kiss was basically two kids trying to explore . He never liked Ash because he would call me from jail & Ash would answer and argue with him or deny his calls .

I sent him letter when I could and he sent on back to my house , That day Ash really beat the shit out of me . I mean he dragged me up and down the house , Stomping on my face with his boots . He pulled out my hair so many times where I literally had bald spots in my head and my scalp was bleeding .

" complicated ? I need to go fuck em up ? .. You know I've been wanting to every since he did that bs on the phone " she said walking his fist up and I couldn't do nothing but laugh .

" Fill us in " Alex said pulling a chair out for him to sit .

" well , My baby mom is still a hoe & trying to keep my son away from me " he said going on and on about Kesha .

" man you should've knew Kesha was like that " I said shaking my head ,  He really got her pregnant before he went to jail and was acting so surprised when she didn't let him see baby Christian . He's about King's age but maybe a few months younger .

" mommy .. The phone not work " king ran into the kitchen saying , I seen Bryan's eyes lit up as he seen king hand me the phone . 

" baby you have to wait for it to load " I said pulling him on my lap .