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chapter 14 : Baby Shower

It's been 3 months since I seen Ash & I wasn't worried about him at all , Today was my gender reveal and I was finding out the sex of my baby . I changed doctors to someone I'm comfortable with and she made sure my baby was 100 percent fine & The great news my baby is healthy and perfectly fine . Alex & Kayla set up this baby shower at this place , Nobody knows the gender but I have a big feeling it's a boy because I'm having the same symptoms I did with King .

I was at my hotel & supposedly my shop was coming to fix me up & I hired a stylist just for this day because I had no idea what to wear . King was with Jessie & Alex because they felt I needed to relax and be a " queen " today . My belly was really big , You'd think I was about 9 months when I'm only 7 which is not to far along . My baby was going to be a Libra born October 16th hopefully I don't have to wait longer like I did with King .

These past months I've been staying in a hotel with King , I didn't want to crowd Jessie's house because Bryan was now staying over there and he was already staying in the guest room . My hormones have been all over the place & I haven't been doing anything but coming to the hotel and going to work .

I took out my phone and layed back on the bed , That shower felt like everything . It was about 2 and my baby shower was at 4 , Whoever was coming to fix up my makeup and bring me my clothes needed to hurry up . I'm acting like a complete brat but it's worth it , As far as I know Kayla and Alex are setting up at the place while Jessie is cooking . I was in this hotel alone with nothing to do , It's not like I could try and do my own make up or anything . I was tired asf and didn't want to move not one bit , There was a knock on the door as soon as I shut my eyes . I didn't want to get up at all but I knew it was most likely tyron and them .

I walked over to the door & opened it , " Thank God y'all here .. I was about to " I said looking up to see flowers and balloons but couldn't see anybody's face . I was standing there for a quick second waiting for whoever it was to reveal themselves .

" wassup Jenn " Ash said lowering the flowers and balloons .

" Ash you need to leave " I said moving back and pushing the door . He placed his foot stopping me from slamming the door in his face .

" Jenn just chill let me talk to you " he said pushing the door , I released from the door and walked back . Whatever he had to say it better be worth it .

" listen ,  We've been through A lot & I know I haven't been the best to you . But Jenn you know me missing my child's baby shower was never going to happen . I love you and King , Leaving y'all will never be an option for me . The drugs and drinking been having me in a different state of mind . It was wrong for me to have that bitch out her hands on you and I promise you she handled with . Just please accept my apology . I've been going to church and everything .  " he said sitting on the bed taking his shades off .

" I don't believe anything you say anymore , Get out Ash " I said pointing towards the door . He grabbed me hands and rubbed them gently , Him touching my hands gentle was a weird feeling . It wasn't normal at all .

" listen Jenn ,  I don't want to be like my dad . I need to you to believe what I'm saying . You know I'm not going to come be honest with you if I didn't love you . Jenn you're my everything , I can't picture me living with out you  my son & the baby . My past has affected us deeply but the only thing I can do is show you that I'm changing and growing up .  These past few months have been stressful and lonely for me . I miss you " I said pulling me closer and kissing in my stomach . Ash has never opened up to me like that before I don't know whether it's genuine or he needs a favor .  He did look sober to me & that's great for him .

" Ash you fucked me up not just with your hands but with your words . " I said pushing back from .  " there's no way I can forgive or forget what you did to me " I said wiping the tears falling from my face . He tried to get up and hug me but it just wasn't right . " you don't love me , it took you almost 3 years to figure out you're a new changed person " I said pushing him again . I was fed up and my hormones where all over the place so that didn't help . I sat on the bed and placed my face in my hands and cried . He's the only person who could relate to me about losing love ones & for him to treat me like shit at a time when I needed him the most was very disturbing .