S T R E N G T H

chapter 16 : Broken families

Lauren -

" Jordan how many times are you going to cheat and lie " I said smacking everything off the table as he lied in my face about messages that I seen already . Me and Jordan been together for about 7 years and we've been married for about 4 years but the cheating has been going on recently when he made a hit song and blew up . Jordan struggled with me shit we both struggled together so for him to flex on me and try to act brand new now that he has money is very messed up .

He's the only one who knows my story and background . I lived with both parents and my younger brother well until my dad got killed in a shoot out while he was in the car with my 12 year old brother Sage . The worst day of my it happened when I was about 17 and still in highschool . Well I'm 20 and that pain still follows me to this day . I try to get over it but my mom is taking it harder than me . Jordan out her in a nice small house where she could branch off her inner self and do something other than crying all day . Me seeing her hurt really breaks my heart , I haven't sat down and talked to her about the incident and it's been over 4 years . It's not best for us to even talk about it because we both didn't expect for it to happen .

Jordan and I met when I was a freshman and he was a senior . A big age difference and you could tell by the way he acted . I thought he was different and truly cared around that time until he started fucking around and messing with bitches that was once my friend . He realized what he lost and came back the ending of the school year when he wanted to take me to prom . I just admit back then I didn't look like a 9th grader at all .

My body was so mature for my age and that caught a lot their attention that I didn't want . I was always the girl that didn't care if my body was perfect if you disrespect me in not talking to you . Giving a girl compliments about her body as the first impression is the dumbest thing you can ever do if you really like her or want to make things serious .

" I told you we ain't texting on that type of shit man " Jordan said getting up from the table and walking away. I bent my head down in my arms and just let all the tears I've been holding in go . Jordan really doesn't know how to handle himself when it comes to cheating .

I grabbed my baby Mya & pulled her seat closer to me while she ate her carrots with ranch . My daughter has been the only thing keeping me and Jordan together . He tries to leave us multiple times but I won't let him . I didn't come all this way for him to just walk out on me and his daughter . All I ask is for him to be there for us and this marriage .

Jordan stays out all night with his friends . I'm not the type to be all on him because I do know he's a basketball player and I don't want him to fuck up everything but this is starting to get out of hand . When me and Jordan argue we say hurtful things to eachother but some of the stuff he says hits me where it hurts . He tells me if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be shit and my mom wouldn't be shit or how he didn't really want Mya & I forced a baby on to him . 

We seem so happy on the outside but deep down inside we go through family problems like everyone else . I know it's time for me to get on my feet and provide for myself because I don't know when's the next time Jordan and going to lash out and try to kick me and Mya out or try to cut all ties with us . Jordan barely talks to Mya or picks her up , He never posts or talks about his daughter to anyone . Only time he touches Mya is when he feels like it or wants to show everyone how good of a dad he is when he's not .

I pulled out my phone and scrolled down Instagram . It's not a day I can scroll down and not see Jordan liking bitches pictures and if I post one thing inappropriate he gets mad and goes out to do him . This marriage has been going through a downfall for the past few years but it's gotten worst . Social media and fame are two big issues that can cause you and your relationship to come down to a end .