The Bad boy's Mistake | kmg

17.

17.

     "O-oppa, I think you need to stop." As the guys were trying to pull Mingyu back, I try to calm him down and stand in between the two guys. His anger is consuming him as he stares daggers right at Jungkook.

I place my hands in front of me, blocking him of any passage way to prevent him from lunging an attack but he sharply looks at me in return—later turning into a sad pair of eyes the moment I ran back to Jungkook.

"Are y-you okay?"

"I'm fine," Jungkook assured me.

I'm so bewildered by what's happening that nothing makes sense at all. From the moment this happened, my mind and heart is nothing but a wrecked mess.

      I try to help Jungkook by supposedly calming him down and leave the guys to tend to Mingyu's anger but all I heard was a loud groan before his foot steps soon disappeared. Mingyu walked out and soon, the crowd dissipates and the boys follow suit.

"Please don't make this hard for me.." It came out as a whisper. My sight focuses on Mingyu and the boys as they walk away and the moment my surroundings calmed down, I finally let out an exasperated sigh.

"Are you okay?" I turn my attention back to Jungkook and see him looking at me with equally worried eyes.

     Not only has this been a shock to him but more so for me too..

I still have a lot of questions I want to ask. From the fact that they probably know each other or if he's alright, or how he's feeling.. I want to know everything but words got stuck in my throat, leaving me speechless.

"Well, are you?" He asks back.

I smile weakly. "I'm not."

* * *

The school festival is next week and we all have 3 days off except for all sports club and festival committee members. That alone gives me no time to dwell and think about what happened. I can't just sort my thoughts and emotions in 3 days time! Not only am I busy with the entire issue but also with the school festival errands. Not to mention, I haven't heard of the incident ever since and not a single news heard from a soul. Knowing this campus, it'd spread like wild fire! Anyone can know the recent happenings but it seems like no one really dared to talk about it. Although, this is what I wanted right? A peaceful life? So why does it feel so heavy on my heart?

I try not to space out as I walk downtown towards the convenience store to buy some stuff my mom asked me to get. It was a small errand and the store is only walking distance anyway. The sliding door then opened and I stopped in my tracks, shocked as I see Taehyung in a convenience store uniform. He looks quickly as surprised as I am and we immediately laughed at how surprising this all is.

     I didn't know he had a part-time job not until today. He shared the story behind him getting this job while he was making me some instant ramen and he told me his mother has been mad at him for slacking off and told him to get a job.

"Here." He hands me my instant noodles.

     We walk towards the seats in front of the convenience store window and decided to eat ramen together. Jeez.. My friend here has been missing out on all the drama lately. Lucky him though.

"Why the long face, Nari?" He peers into my face.

  I blow my noodles before I slurp them all up and give a weak smile. He knew that I was going through something so I didn't have to act all brave and okay in front of him and I wasn't planning on lying either.

"A lot happened while you were out, pabo!" I knock his head down with my fist!

All my frustration of not having him there beside me all those times is all accumulating again! I had to eat lunch alone and be alone for 3 days because he had the flu! If I had known he started working part-time after he recovered, I would've went straight here after school!

He scratches his head and crossed his arms after. "What happened then? I heard from Seungcheol that you've been ignoring them."

Taehyung doesn't have me as his only friend. That's one of the hardest pill to swallow when I started high school here in Korea. Taehyung was my only friend when I was new and as hard as it was, I really didn't want to be selfish by limiting him with his circle. Eventually, there were days I had to spend my time alone because he had other friends too. That includes the boys and probably Mingyu too.

"It's not that, just think it's best if we parted ways."

"We? You mean you and Mingyu?" I hesitated but I said yes.

     I appreciate him listening to me though. Despite the circumstances, he's always there for me whenever I needed someone. Now is also part of it.

     "What are you up to, Nari?" He placed his chopsticks down and sighed. "You keep making decisions base on what?"

I was taken aback. His question caught me off guard. By the way he's staring at me, I can feel the intensity of the atmosphere between us. Taehyung can be caring but he can also be blunt like this.

"Have you asked Mingyu if this was the best thing to do? Did you even consider how Mingyu would feel if you just suddenly walk away like this?"

His words were like arrows that stabbed me straight in the heart. He has a point, I get it but no matter how strong his point is, I'm determined to live up to my decision. I love Mingyu but if we were really meant to be, it wouldn't be this hard. From his habits, to the girls, to danger itself.. He was no longer the same person I once knew. His lifestyle, his personality, everything. Loving him was easy but staying in love with him is taking a toll on me.

"Mianhae, oppa." Was all I had to say. I wanted him to understand but I don't know how to express it. By the end of the day, it's probably best if I kept it to myself.

  He let out a sigh. Whenever I really decide on something, I take it up to heart. I don't go back on my decision.

"Look, you just realized your feelings for him and here you are giving up without even trying?"

     His words were starting to sting. He's slowly stepping on my pride and it's getting me aggravated. Loving Mingyu was my choice and falling out of it will be mine as well. The amount of anxiety and fear planted deep within my heart the moment the seed of love sprouted in it was too much for me.

"Why do you even want me to pursue this?" I fire back.

     My pride is having the best of me. Forcing me to snap back at my own best friend. Even probably the only best friend I have right now.

     "I clearly remember you telling me to stay away from him months ago. So why are you also making this so hard for me?"

I know it's wrong, I know. I should not give up and fight but Mingyu doesn't only have Hayoung. I know there are other more people and women that are directly linked with him and that gives him the more burden to protect me.

     Love wasn't supposed to be hard. It wasn't supposed to scare you away. The love I have for him is stitched together with fear and with danger. It's not the love I want to have and even if this decision will break me in the end, it's something I must live up to continue.

"It's because you're looking at this wrongly, Nari!" He looks at me in disbelief, raising his voice in the process. Seeing how negatively he's reacting is only made me mad. I can't believe Taehyung isn't supporting me for the first time! He was clearly against all of this in the first place!

     I was starting to look mad and hurt at the same time and Taehyung quickly realized what he had done. This was a first for us. It was our first fight and it really had to be because of Mingyu.

"I-I'm sorry, that came out wr—"

"You know what, oppa? I'll just go." I cut him off and leave without a glance.

I run out the store with a heavy heart.

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