solitude • kihyun

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a bath was the only comforting thing she could have at the moment. her throat and stomach hurt since now it was empty again. 

the bathtub provided her with great relief. she submerged her fragile body and closed her eyes. 

and she hoped to see him, maybe his smile or maybe hearing his voice telling her something, anything. 

an explanation about why he hid all these things from her. 

but it was empty and black. nothing.

she sat straight as the drops of water ran freely down and she sighed at the thought of walking out again and having to see kibum's twin brother again. 

gathering her courage she finally did it and thanked the universe since he wasn't around. quickly she went inside her room and closed the door behind. 

she picked a long sleeved dress and a pair of socks and brushed her hair, tying it in a high pony tail. 

it had been the first time she had tied or brushed her hair in months. there were hair knots around but she knew she couldn't go out looking like hell since there was someone else in that house.

she opened the door and glanced both ways and slowly walked towards the living room. 

yuna stopped on her tracks when she noticed kihyun was patiently sitting on the couch. when he noticed her, he quickly stood straight and stared at her with worried eyes.

"gwenchana?"

she just nodded. "sorry... i - she swallowed hard. she didn't know exactly what to say. it was obvious she was throwing up but nobody wanted to talk about it. 

"maybe i am not a good cook after all." he dared to joke. she just chuckled, almost forcing herself not to. 

she shook her head. "aniyo. it wasn't the soup... don't worry."

"now you're empty again." she looked at him with widened eyes. somehow believing it was true. she was truly empty inside, nothing left. but she wasn't exactly thinking about the food.

"it's fine. i am not hungry anymore."

"you need to eat to be healthy, okay?" he asked nodding, she nodded as well. 

"about that - she said pointing to the bathroom and the scene they both shared previously - now i believe that your brother lied to me, a lot." she said nodding as she noticed kihyun approaching her with sympathetic eyes.

"yuna-ssi- he started but she shook her head.

"he hid things from me - she looked down ashamed - and i am sorry for questioning you in the first place. it wasn't right."

he pressed his lips together in a thin line and finally nodded. "you're lawyer, that's your instinct."

she hated herself for chuckling again since she wasn't in the mood for laughing but it was hard not to. it seemed like he'd find witty ways to make her smile even against her own will. 

"hajima." she said serious, turning around and walking to the kitchen. kihyun followed her, leaning on the breakfast table he looked at her.

"why? it's fun." 

"it shouldn't be." she simply said looking for a glass of water. they remained silent for a few seconds until he finally broke it.

"listen... i can't excuse him because i have no idea why he lied to you about these things, especially if you two were about to get married." the mention of it seemed to bother her.