solitude • kihyun

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in that moment she felt as if a big weight had been lifted from her shoulders. deep inside she had always felt slightly guilty for developing such feelings for kibum's brother. 

she thought it was wrong and that probably it was something he wouldn't like nor approve. 

yuna cried as she threw her arms around kihyun. they both cried that night, like nothing before. they let out all the frustrated feelings and cry that have been holding deep inside.

she wasn't sure if he had changed his mind but at this point she desperately wanted him to. she couldn't picture her life without him in it. it was hard to think about a worst situation in which she loses both, her fiancé and the man with whom she felt a incredibly new and strong connection and who happened to be her fiancé's twin brother.

"kihyun... don't leave me." she begged once more. but kihyun only hugged thigtly. 

he wasn't worried at this point. his feelings changed in those last hours. he didn't feel the same way as he did when he arrived.

he held her face between his hands and for the first time in that day, he smiled softly. 

"i won't." he simply said. 

yuna looked at him confused, still filled with doubts. "what?"

"i don't want to disappear from this world if you're in it." yuna's heart raced at the sweet words. 

he caressed her hair and placed a soft peck on her lips. "i want to keep seeing you... every day yuna." his voice was sweet and gentle just as his eyes. 

in that moment she felt incredibly relieved. she felt as she could breathe again. her lungs filling with oxygen once more and she couldn't remember the last time she felt like this. it seemed like it had been ages ago. 

she looked for his lips desperately as she climb on top of him as they were sitting on the floor. her hungry lips kissing his as the tears kept streaming down her cheeks. 

it was hard to picture away out of all of it. out of the depression that kibum left behind. the memories and the sadness. 

but everything has a start. 

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the past few days were crazy. a lot of cleaning and packing. the only room missing was the kitchen and the actual shed. 

kihyun had  packed most of the kitchen items by himself during one of the previous nights. 

it was more than obvious they wanted to leave that place as soon as possible. and now since that house was kihyun's he didn't want to live in it anymore. so he decided to sell it and buy an apartment in the city. 

he didn't want to be linked to that house anymore since all of his family had lived there and it brought incredibly painful memories to him. 

he wanted to have a fresh start and that's what he was looking for, desperately. 

"is that everything?" he heard yuna's voice from the shed. 

"yeah i think there are two more boxes inside, i'll go and get them." he said walking towards the house. 

he walked inside trying to remember where was the last time he saw them and he walked in direction to the hallway and towards the bathroom, passing by kibum's old room. 

his eyes caught something unusual and he stopped on his tracks, taking a few steps back. he turned around slowly and looked in direction to kibum's room. 

he stood frozen as a pair of green eyes exactly like his, stared at him from the other side of the room. 

his brother was standing there, right before his eyes, partially. 

kihyun felt his heart racing at the traslucid figure that remained motionless as it stared at him with intense yet reassuring eyes. 

he didn't say a thing. he just showed him his arm and kihyun noticed the tattoo they both had gotten when they were teenagers was still there. the other half. his green eyes sparkled as he smiled at his brother, showing off the tattoo. 

kihyun touched his own tattoo and they both giggled at the same time. 

kibum looked exactly the same as he looked when they were 18, the time when they got the matching tattoos. he looked young and fresh. his black hair slightly long and tousled. a childish smile and school uniform. 

he wanted to say so manyt things but he didn't know if he was imagining everything. he didn't know if it was his mind playing tricks. but he didn't want to think that was the case.

kihyun felt the need of cry at the sight of his brother. he didn't know how much he had missed him and for a second he wished he was there with him, for real, so he could hug him. so he could apologize for everything. 

his brother stared at him with worried eyes but finally flashed a reassuring nod. he wanted so desperately to see him one more time. 

but now that he did, he could finally rest in peace. 

kihyun took a step inside the room but in that moment, his brother's reflection started to vanish slowly. the last thing he saw was kibum's warm smile and he understood he had forgiven him too. 

the relief was immense. he thought knowing the truth would bring him some peace and comfort. but it wasn't compared with having his brother's forgiveness, for have ignored him before when he wanted to talk to him. for not allow him to say he was sorry. for blame everything on him. 

somehow that was eating him alive and now that he was certain his brother had forgave him. he felt ten thousand times relieved. 

he wanted to believe that was kibum's actual soul saying goodbye one last time. he wanted to believe he wasn't crazy nor imagining things. 

but at that point he didn't care at all. he didn't care if it had been a product of his imagination. his heart was happy to know he got to see his brother one more time. 

"are you sure those are the last ones?" he heard yuna's voice coming from outside. kihyun noticed the moving truck already parked in front of the house. he just nodded.

yuna noticed he seemed different. "gwenchana?" she asked worried as she caressed his forearm. 

he smiled widely at her. the first carefree smile. a smile that came straight from his heart. because he was allowed to smile again. 

"of course. let's get this thing over with." he said leaning down and pressing a soft kiss on yuna's forehead as they both walked towards the moving truck to take the few remaining boxes. 

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a/n: hey guys! final chapter is up. as i mentioned somewhere, this is a short story. it was just an idea i had and wanted to developed into a short fanfic (took around 20 chapters). i really want to thank you all in advantage for the support and love you gave to this fic and the rest of my stories, it means a lot to me. it's been SUCH a long time since i cried writing something (last time was taehyung's fanfic rain) and i kind of needed it. even though this is the last chapter. we still have an epilogue coming so look forward to it! i am still writing it so i might post it tomorrow night, we'll see. 

again, thank you so so much! we have plenty stories coming in the future so i hope you stay tunned.    

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