I hate him, I love him//Jacob Sartorius

-Fifty-Three-

Emily's POV 

I woke up on Grayson's chest. I must've fell asleep on him. I look around and see Bella, Sou, and Adam asleep on the couches. 

I check my phone and see multiple texts from Jacob.

J- I'm sorry 

J- Em

J- Em please don't be like this 

J- Emily 

J- Hello?

J- Please text me back

J- Em??

I roll my eyes and close the app. Why didn't I just block his number.

"You can't bring yourself to block the one person you've ever loved"  said the voice in my head. I quickly push it out.

I love Grayson, Jacob's not the only one. And I loved him, I don't still love him. Yea i still have feelings for him but not of love. 

"Morning," Grayson said stirring. I push Jacob out of my mind and focus on Grayson.

"Morning," I reply, giving him a quick kiss. 

"So everyone' still asleep?" he asks 

"Yea,"

"You wanna make them breakfast?" 

"Or we could go get food and put it on plates and say we made it?" I suggest. He laughs.

"ok, IHOP?"

"No Bella and Sou know the taste too well," I say. We finally decide on somewhere and go get the breakfast.

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"You guys are up early," Bella says coming into the kitchen as me and Grayson finished plating the food we "made." 

"Yes, problem?" I ask.

"Yea. Should I got wake them up to eat or nah?" 

"Yea please, also get the orange juice and milk out of the fridge," I tell her.

"I'm not your maid," 

"Shush, we made you breakfast just get the drinks," 

"Fine mom," she says rolling her eyes. She grabs the drinks and wakes Adam and Sou up. 

"This is really good guys, I didn't know you could cook," Sou says, stuffing as many pancakes in her mouth that could fit. 

"Me either," I say.

We spend the rest of breakfast talking and eating until Grayson left.

"Bella, Sou, come upstairs I need to tell you something," I say, after finishing with the dishes.

"But I wanna know," Adam says, pouting.

"Stop pouting your not 3 anymore,"

"If it's about Jacob I should know I promised to help you with this,"

"Why do you just assume it's about him? My life doesn't revolve around him," I say, annoyed.

"Well is it?"

"Yes," I murmur, looking at the floor. I can just see him smirking. 

"Well alright then, what is it?" he asks. 

I roll my eyes and show them the messages between me and Jacob.

"Ok lemme get this straight, he bullied you, you forgave him, he cheated, you forgave him, he embarrassed you in front of the whole school, you forgave him, he beat the crap outta you so many times, you forgave him, he cheated on you again, you forgave him, you guys broke up, now that you're dating someone he expects you to get back together with him again?" Bella asks. 

"You got that from like 5 texts?" Sou asks. 

"I mean yea, it's kind obvious,"

"Hold up, he hit you?" Adam asks.

"Um, no," I say.

"I'm about to pull up, why the hell is he hitting you?" 

"Because he's so bi-polar. One minute he hates me the next he loves me. I don't get it--- where are you going?" I ask as Adam is leaving.

"To go teach that little piece of crap a lesson," he slams the door before I get a chance to stop him.

"You're not gonna stop him?" Sou asks.

"Nah, he deserves it,"

"Don't you think him not getting you is punishment enough?" Bella asks. I think for a little.

"No, punishment is getting physically and emotionally abused by the person you love. What Adam is going to do right now is nothing compared to what he's done to me." They stay quiet for a few minutes. 

"Then why be with him?" Sou asks again.

"What?"

"You always talk about how much he's abused you, so why every time you have the chance you go back to him?" 

"Because I'm a stupid person, is that what you wanna hear? There were so many good times, I'm not gonna lie but when I think back to him, I remember the bad. I remember how much he hurt me." 

"Oh," she replies as her voice trails off. Everyone is silent, soon enough it starts to get awkward. 

"What should I do?" 

"Wait for Adam to get back I guess. If he really is beating up your ex there is not much you could do." Bella says.

"Yea I guess,"

"I just wanna see him start swinging, ever since that dance I've just wanted to punch him but Weston needed to hold me back. See I knew he wasn't good for me since that day," Sou adds. We laugh. "Ethan would start punching him with me, not hold me back."

"Well you did start swinging one time, it was like a day or two after you broke up with Weston I think, you got suspended and I had to be the one to explain everything to Ms. Green," Bella says.

"Oh yea, I remember that day. Jacob claimed that he tripped me accidentally that first day we met and just kept bullying me for popularity. I swear I hate him,"

"Hey Bell, I forgot to ask, how's Mario? You guys are still together right?" Sou asks.

"What? Mario, yea he's fine. We're still together for sure, it's been so nice between us. Sorry Em,"

"Sorry? For what?"

"I'm saying how good my relationships are going when yours are all, well, yea," 

"Don't be sorry, it's just Jacob that has been making them crazy,"

"Ok,"

We spend the rest of the time talking until Adam came back.

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I updated :)

This one is a bit longer than the last ones, I got really bored

I'm probably gonna end it within the next 10-20 chapters, not sure yet

After that I'll go into editing so it's not as cringey 

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