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84 | my soft side

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my soft side!

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so uh somebody just
confessed to me again
and i don't know how to
feel. i didn't know how
to reply back. i feel so
horrible oh my gosh.

i remember when a girl,
yeah, a girl confessed to
me at school via letter and
i didn't know how to respond
either and i asked Casual_Girl46
and another friend how to reply,
they told me to say the usual, like

"i'm really sorry, but i can't return
the same feelings. but we could still
be friends if you'd like." and guess what?

the pussy i am couldn't do it.

i ended up replying to her stuff like
"you're really sweet." and "you could
find someone better than me though,
because i'm a pathetic ass." or something
idek. then when my friend asked me
why i couldn't do it, my excuse was that

'it makes my heart hurt.'

then my friend went "aww,
and this is why people like
you." i was like wtf why i'm
literally the embodiment of satan.

she said it's because other than
me having certain traits of a
guy, (no joke i'll seriously make
a chapter full of nonsense school
stories that killed my feminity)

i also have a soft side.

i was like "hAH YOU WISH—"

then i realized it was true.

then it also got me thinking
like crazy, i had a feeling
that the people confessing
to me do it, is because they
know i couldn't turn them
down, and they just get
compliments from me and
in the end, they sorta win?

honestly i never talked about
that thought to anyone ever
so like there you go lmao.

i'm so messed up now lol
i'm not even supposed to think
about this like wtf i'm not even
a graduate yet like focus on
your studies first man. .-.

btw dm me if you'd like i need advice on this stuff.