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34 | art contest (rant)

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rant #1!

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my class forced me to
join an art contest and
represent our section which
is apparently called

"creative"

it was going good at first,
i mean, i was actually a
bit excited for it at the start.

then i saw my competition.

my rival in drawing
since first grade.

look so before i say
anything that'll trigger
her classmates lmao
i don't hate her.

it was just unfair.
because i was already
forced to join this, and
i'm not good with drawing
when there's a certain topic
i'm asked to draw and
uncomfortable with.

it doesn't help that
she had pro materials
like prismacolor pencils
while i had a secondhand
watercolour set and a test
eraser that my classmate
just lended me because
i lost mine earlier that day.

and guess what?

it doesn't help that the judges
which are the teachers are going
around looking at us working,
saying nothing while when they
pass by my first grade rival they
say things like "wow, it's so pretty!"
or "you're very good at this!" to her
and only her, either.

eventually, it got to my head.
time was pressuring me.
also the endless compliments
to her only too. i didn't even
get to think about how my
drawing would look like.

i didn't finish.
and when the teachers took
everybody's work, they looked
at mine then faced each other with
sympathetic looks on their faces.
wow.

then when i got home
everybody in my class
started texting me,
saying things like "how
did the contest go?" or
"i hope you'll win. i know it."

and when i told my classmates
about the favouritism on my
opponent. one girl said "you
know, she's nothing on you."

well she was everything.
i let my classmates down.

so much for being
"class creative".