FACTS ABOUT ME, RANTS, RANDOM STUFF.

87 | update on my life

────── {.⋅ 💀 ⋅.} ──────

update!

────── {.⋅ 💀 ⋅.} ──────

hi my life is messed up.

first of all, i'm not even
supposed to be updating.
i promised myself to stay
away from my internet life
for a while for school but eh
here i am now.

i'm currently running away
from all my responsibilities
and choices in life because i
don't even know what to do.

school is a looot harder now.
and remember my new class
named patriotic? yeah uh that
class's kinda harder than any
other section in my batch lol.

i'm also scared of multiple people.
for some reason my parents found
out i'm not at all open to them and
i have lots of problems now they
think i'm bi-polar or depressed or
something. st op.

i'll go into detail about that
next time but expect it to be
a vent that will get deleted soon lol.

i'm also scared of my cousin who's pretty
much my brother lmao. (from part #81)

he messaged me yesterday saying
"cai, i have to talk to you" aND THE
LAST TIME THAT HAPPENED IT DIDN'T
GO VERY WELL HEH.

he pissed me off real bad because he was
talking about cousin beef or something and
he didn't let me hear it. he was joking around
thinking i would fall for that. the words i replied
were really unintentionally said, but i said them.
so i think if ever i'm gonna man up, yeah i have
a feeling it's about that.

i'm that kinda person that
looks and says they're okay.
but in reality,
my mental health,
my physical health,
& my emotional health
are being tested lmaoao.

bUT HEY I'M OKAY, PROMISE.

i just find handling things
are easier alone for me.

that's why i never really
keep permanent vents
about what i really feel,
most of them are fabricated.

so yeah, stay in school,
don't do drugs, and go
watch ant-man & the wasp
for me because i'd probably
miss it because of well, myself.

:)