My Online Identity

Chapter 12

Alexia

I drove away from the hospital, my eyes filled with tears. How did this happen? When I got home I checked my phone. 6 am, no texts, no missed calls, nothing. I wanted my phone to be full of missed messages and calls from Jasper but they weren't there of course. I felt exhausted but after that how could I sleep? I heard my mom getting up to go to work and figured it was safe to put on some music. I put on Christina Perri 'The Lonely' and began to sway softly to the music and sang along like we had done together last night. That was last night. I felt new tears falling down my face as I got more into the song. I absorbed the lyrics as I moved and cried, every little move I made reminded me of him. He wasn't even dead but who knows how long it would be before I could see him.

"Alexia?" My mom knocked softly on the door. "Can I come in?"

I didn't respond but she came in anyways.

"What's wrong sweetie? And what's with the note?" She asked gently.

I tried to answer but I broke into tears.

She hugged me tightly. "Did you see him?"

"No." I cried. "I was there all night waiting but I wasn't allowed in."

"Did you find out how he is?"

"He'll be okay."

"There you go! He'll be fine! Come on sweetie. Come get some breakfast. And no more sad music okay? Think happy thoughts."

I shook my head and pulled my blankets tighter around me. I glanced at my phone's blank screen before turning it off and shoving it under my pillow.

"I'll bring something out for you then. At least go outside." She said gently as she opened my curtains.

"No." I choked out. I stared at my chair sadly.

My mom simply looked at me sadly before leaving me to myself.

1 week later I finally turned my phone's wifi on again. I had about a million texts from Charlotte but nothing from Jasper.

A: Jasper? How are you?

Nothing. What had I expected? I opened my curtains a little and turned on Christina Perri again. I sang quietly to myself. "Can the lonely take the place of you?" I sat down on my bed and for the first time in a week updated my story on Wattpad. It was a sad couple of chapters. I got really into it and it became one of the only things I did during the day. Most of the time I uploaded 1 or 2 parts but some days I wrote as many as 3 which was crazy compared to other writers. My days passed with hardly any excitement or actually, any interesting events at all. However, it took 9 days after Jasper's accident for anything noteworthy to happen. What happened? He texted me.

J: Lex

A: Jasper!

J: Lex I am so sorry

A: For what? Jasper you didn't do anything. It was the other guys fault! He was drunk

J: I know but I'm sorry for leaving you

A: You didn't have a choice. You were unconscious

J: Still

A: It wasn't your fault.

J: I should have texted or called

A: Your aunt did

J: She did?

A: Yeah she used your phone and called me at 2 in the morning on Saturday. I was in the waiting room till 6

J: Really?

A: Yeah

J: Can you come visit anytime soon? I'm losing my mind