Stars Align (Hamburr/Modern AU)✔

C H A P T E R T E N

Trigger warning: Suicide attempt, depression, ya that stuffs.

Ah, Google. My best friend when I have questions.

Okay, I know I'm ready, or should I wait longer? No. There's no going back on this now.

'things to ask before you are intimate with your partner'

I probably should've been more straight forwar—Oh, I guess not. How about first option, okay... First question doesn't apply.

Uhhhh... Second question doesn't apply, because I live with him and he rarely leaves the dorm, so he obviously isn't sleeping with anyone else.

That's it. Okay, then.

I closed my laptop, sighing and standing up.

It's alright Aaron. It's okay. It's okay, just ask him two questions, problem solved.

I hesitantly knocked on Alexander's door, chewing my lip and thinking about how to word myself. Alexander opened the door and smiled. "Hello, Aaron. How's it going babe?" I sighed and nodded. "Can I ask you a question?" Alexander nodded.

"What's your uh... Sexual history?" I asked nervously while fidgeting with my hands and rocking on my heels.

"Oh, uhm, y'know my arch-enemy Thomas Jefferson?" I nodded. Oh, dear god. "Yeah, uh, he was my first time with a guy, before he cheated on me with his current boyfriend, and my first and only girlfriend Elizabeth Schuyler." I nodded. "Also, Maria Reynolds, Angelica Schuyler, and... I believe that's it." I nodded to show that I was listening to him.

"And uh... What are your feelings towards condoms?" I asked, still very shyly, my cheeks burning up. "I'm not opposed, safe sex is never bad." I nodded.

"Okaythat'sallthanksbye" I spun around on my heels and began walking over to me bedroom. "Wait!" I turned back around. "You're really cute when you're flustered. Goodnight Aaron." I turned around and speed walked to my bedroom, flopping down onto my bed, staring at the ceiling. I felt the room start to spin, confusion washing over me—Oh shit, I didn't take my meds, goddammit, no-no-no...

This is what withdraw feels like apparenty. "Alex!" I waited patiently, simply embracing the face that no matter how much I tried this whole process would just get more painful and difficult to handle. Alexander came storming into my bedroom. "Yes?" he asked. "I forgot to take my meds." Alexander sat me up. "Well, let's do that now then, shall we?" I nodded. Alexander picked up my pill bottles, opening them in record time as well as handing them to me. He then opened a water bottle for me and put it in my opposite hand. I took the pills, although they were late, as much as I knew it would fuck up my system I did it anyway.

"What time is it?" I asked before sipping the water again. "I think it's around eleven." I facepalmed. "I'm four hours behind on my medication now." Alexander moved to sit next to me. "It's okay." I shook my head. "No, it's really not."

Alexander held my hand. "You'll be okay, I'm sure of it." I sighed loudly. "Alex stop being comforting for once and help me here. I have to reorganize my pill schedule now." He giggled but nodded. "I won't letcha down, baby." He responded before kissing my cheek.

~ T I m e s k i p u ~

I walked through the college's hallway, looking down until I reached my classroom. When I stepped in, the first person I saw was Lee. I felt my heart beat speed up, forcing me to freeze in my tracks. I shook it off and sat down as far away from him as possible.