Heartache (Completed)

Chapter 4: What if?

Len couldn't believe it. Did Barry blow him off? Since when? Was Barry really that sensitive? Or was Len just that much of a jerk?

Len had no idea. Relationships were complicated, that's why he didn't do them. But Barry was different. He actually wanted to hang out with Barry. Get to know him. 

Since when did Len 'get to know' people? Was something wrong with him? 

But he had never felt so right! 

Huh?

When did people start making him question himself?

Since Barry.

Ugh.

...

Barry did not want to go to work. He just wanted to stay home and sleep. 

So he did.

Iris would be suspicious, but it was worth it. So would Joe, but he didn't care. He slept all day.

Caitlin and Cisco would call his bull, but Barry wanted to get away from it all, and he couldn't drink, so sleeping was his next best option.

...

Barry missed work!?! Now, was it for him, or was he sick? Len needed to know. So decided to pay a little visit. (He always smirked at his puns; This time was no different. Since when did he pay for things?) 

Barry was sleeping on his couch, arm on his face, (Probably to block out the sun) snoring quietly. Len still wasn't sure, (Or at least, that was what he was telling himself; In reality, he loved watching Barry sleep) so he stayed until Barry woke up, yawning, sweating, and gasping. Len would have woken him up, but he had to maintain his cover. 

Len realized that he was stalking Barry. Jeez. He was worse than a teenage girl!

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Barry woke up from his nightmare, and almost started crying. 

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Barry's Dream:

He was with Len, in the bedroom. His pants were off, as was his shirt, and boxers. Len was still fully-clothed, smirking. 

"I love you, Len," Barry sighed. "Glad, Scarlet. That will make this even better." 

Suddenly, the windows opened to a bunch of reporters and a giant sign that read,

FLASH IN BOXERS

Barry was beyond humiliated. He turned to Snart in tears.

"How could you do this to me?" he asked sadly. "I thought you loved me." Len smirked again. 

"How could I love an idiot like you, Barry? Whatever made you think I did? The letter? The one-night stand? Robbing banks? Icing you? You idiot," Len sighed.  

Barry was openly crying now, leaving his emotions in his tears. 

Len just watched, not caring, not loving, not anything. "I hate you, Barry Allen. Your mother didn't deserve to die, but you deserved to lose a mother. If anything, I bet she was relieved. I mean, you wear your emotions on your sleeve. You deserve an arrow because you have failed this city. 

Suddenly, Oliver appeared. "He's right," he said as he pointed to Len. "You are a terrible superhero. Look at all you've accomplished. Killing Ronnie, Dante, HR, Eddie, and all of your villains. And they call me a murderer. And you've been hung up on the same girl for your entire life. How sad is that?" 

Then, of course, Iris showed up. "Yeah, Barry. Get over me. I'm never gonna love a murderer anyway, so you can stop hoping. Your just wasting my time. I'm trying to move on, but you keep getting in the way. You selfish bitch!

Then Nora showed up. She always showed up. "You still haven't saved me. Selfish. How could you? It's like you don't love me anymore. Did you ever? Or is it that I raised a coward? I don't know anymore. Pretty sure it's both." 

End of Dream.

...

Barry had trained himself not to cry after nightmares. He usually could make it look like a 'busy' dream more than a nightmare.  

He didn't know what to do. He couldn't sleep because he couldn't risk any nightmares and he couldn't get drunk... Wait. Wait. He couldn't, at least, not on this earth. Supergirl has brought up an alien bar...

He quickly ran and opened a portal. Hello Supergirl, goodbye Len...

...

"I hate him," Barry slurred out. Alien alcohol is really good. And you get drunk pretty fast. (Barry would have smiled at the pun, but it hurt to do so)

"Hate who?" Supergirl asked, in hopes of getting Barry to answer. They had been at this game all night, she trying to find out who Barry was talking about, Barry saying how much he hates him.

It was entertaining.

Or, at least, to Barry. Kara? Not so much.

"Lenny," Barry said. "He's evil. He got dumped, used me for a rebound, messed with my feelings, and left a harsh note. And he's a criminal. I don't like him. Except I do." Supergirl just stared at Barry. What had he gotten himself into?

...

Len was wondering what the hell had just happened. Barry opened a-a-a portal!!!! Since when could he do that!?!?

And was he ok? He looked pretty shaken up when he woke up from what looked like a nightmare. He shouldn't be making portals when he was obviously suffering from something! Was he sick? Why wasn't he at work?

Len sighed loudly. Why was this his concern?

...

Barry woke with a killer hangover and a quick realization that he was not in his bed. He looked over to see Kara in her PJ's sleeping next to him. Then he scared the room and found Winn in a chair at a desk in Kara's room. What happened last night?

Kara suddenly shot right up, gasping in shock. Suddenly she was gone, faster than Barry could blink. Man, that really was annoying. He wouldn't stop doing it, just pointing it out.

Winn also woke with a loud groan and moan. Barry shot up to get him Advil, but he quickly fell over, moaning and holding his head in agony.

Then Kara came back, with some water, Advil, and hugs for both of them. Winn happily took all three, even if he was moaning for the entire hug and two minutes after. Apparently, it was worth it.

Barry straight up shot down the hug, but happily took everything else. He hadn't had a headache or a hangover since the lighting. Ugh. It had been so long.

Kara walked over to him and smiled. "I know about Lenny," she said. "I'm here for you; I totally get it if you don't want to talk about him. He sounds like a complete asshole." Barry had to smile; she only cussed to prove a point. And he agreed.

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Len quickly snuck into STAR Labs, and right into Cisco and the Dr. Maybe they could help his little mission?

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Barry smiled. "Thanks for everything, Kara! Miss you already!" Kara smiled and waved, but Barry was already gone.

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Len was in STAR Labs with Cisco and Dr. Snow, who were explaining the multiverse. He couldn't wrap his head around it. But it did make sense, even if it didn't. Cisco just had to show off, so he showed Len his power to make a 'breach'. Len thought the whole thing was rather stupid, and confusing, but he needed to understand this for Barry.

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Speak of the Devil.

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Barry ran right to STAR Labs. He needed to explain to Cisco and Caitlin what was going on with him. He wouldn't tell them that it was Snart, but he needed to tell them. Friends told friends everything after all.

He then, of course, ran straight into Cold himself.