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Barry has had a crush on Snart ever since he met him. Snart was a witty thief, who could defend himself. Not to m...
How could he win him back, especially since he didn't even know what he did wrong?
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"Barry!" Len said as he raced through the hall. Barry turned, a sad expression on his face. "Yes?" he asked, obviously dreading the answer. Len took a deep breath.
"What did I do?" he asked. "I don't remember. All I know is that one minute we were together, and the next I was waking up in the MedBay with you pissed at me. What happened?"
Barry looked at him, and he could tell that Len was being honest.
So Barry told him.
"Well, for starters, you said, and I quote, 'Well, I'm only doing this because I like to hook up, and you're the only one who will. I don't hook up with girls and no men on here are gay. Another thing. You're really bad. Have you never practiced? Are you that unattractive? 'Cause I certainly would understand. I'm cold, what is considered the opposite of hot, but even I'm hotter than you. I don't like you, Barry. At all. If anything, I hate you. You're a jerk. Selfish. That's why you'll never be a hero. Because you couldn't be selfish if you wanted to. That's also why The Reverse-Flash targeted you. Because you deserved your Mother to die. She didn't deserve to die, but you deserved to live without a mother. Your Dad shouldn't have gotten blamed, but I bet he was happy to be rid of you. You must have been such a disappointment. Same with your Mother. Bet she was happy to be rid of you.' Then you raped me, and told me I deserved it."
Len looked at Barry, tears already streaming down his cheeks, hands over his mouth. A loud choking sound came from behind his hands, but it was muffled.
"I-I-I-I'm so, so, so, so sorry," Len said, and he barely got it out.
Somehow, Barry had said it with a straight face.
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Len couldn't believe it. He couldn't believe that he could be that terrible.
He couldn't face Barry anymore.
So, he pulled a page from Barry's book and ran.
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Len sighed. That was a lot to process. Had he really done that?
This was so hard.
He knew he wanted to be with Barry. He couldn't deny it if he tried. But he also knew that it was wrong. He didn't deserve Barry, and he never would.
After all, he was just a thief. He didn't deserve a hero.
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Barry was confused as hell.
Why had he told Snart that? How did he say it without crying?
Why did Snart look surprised and horrified when Barry told him that?
It was confusing, and Barry didn't want to deal with it.
So, he ignored it, at least for the time being.
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"It's my party and I'll cry if I want to Cry if I want to, cry if I want to You would cry too if it happened to you You would cry, Yeah yeah yeaahhh-" Len whispered to himself. It was all he had left for comfort.
He didn't know any other lyrics. So he just sang the same ones over and over to himself.
He closed his eyes, and he saw Barry. He felt tears fill his eyes, but he didn't even care. He was a monster.
He thought back to what he had said to Barry...
"Because you deserved your Mother to die. She didn't deserve to die, but you deserved to live without a mother. Your Dad shouldn't have gotten blamed, but I bet he was happy to be rid of you. You must have been such a disappointment. Same with your Mother. Bet she was happy to be rid of you."
What if that applied to him too?
He wouldn't be able to live with himself if that was true.
Then he remembered.
Barry had attempted suicide.
Len put his hands over his mouth.
He had caused that.
Tears slid down his cheeks. He was the worst kind of monster.
Maybe he should take another page out of Barry's book...
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Barry pulled out his computer. There was something he had to look up.
What is LOVE? he typed.
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Barry realized he was dealing with the verb. How could he love someone as evil as Leonard Snart?
He sighed.
How to get over a breakup? Barry typed.
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"Keep your distance. Even if you and your exdecided to stay friends, break away completely from each other right after the breakup. ... Organize your space. ... Remove painful memory triggers. ... Get out and do things. ... Beware of rebound relationships. ... Continue to take care of yourself."
Site: How to Get Over a Breakup
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Barry sighed. None of this would help.
He can't keep his distance, he already tried to reorganize, he didn't have any painful memory triggers, he couldn't get out of a timeship, he didn't have anything near a rebound relationship, and he already had failed at the last one.
Damn.
This might be a little harder than he thought.
How to get over a breakup if you still love them? he typed.
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"Nothing can keep you from a happier future than a lingering relationship wound. We've all been there: Experiencing good love gone bad is painful. It doesn't really matter what the circumstances were, or who was right and who was wrong. The bottom line is that it hurts and that the pain is preventing you from moving forward."
Site: 5 Ways to Move on When You Still Love Your Ex.
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Well. That was extremely helpful. (Not)
Barry sighed. This wasn't harder than he'd thought.
It was impossible, given the circumstances.
Damnit.
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