//you don't know me//finn Wolfhard

chapter 6 - i hope she won't hurt me

Finn's Pov

I look in the back seat when I hear soft snores and see a peaceful sleeping Y/N Rodriguez. She looks so beautiful and I just want to hold her. I'm still confused about why she was in the hospital. I know she was lying, there was no doubt about that but I didn't want to get her upset, especially since she just came out of the hospital. I just want to protect and hold her. I don't want anyone to hurt her. I know she said that I didn't have to worry if she got hurt or not but I can't help but do just that. I'm going to try my hardest to not hurt her. If anyone hurts her I'll hurt them. I really like this girl, she makes me feel things that I have only felt once but that all ended in heartbreak. I just know that she won't hurt me, I hope.

"Are you just going to keep staring at her sleep like a creep?" I hear Jack laughing from the driver's side.

I shake my head and look down at my lap hiding my burning face, while nervously laughing.

"You really like her," Jack says with a small smile.

"Yeah. Yeah, I really do. She makes me so happy but just being here. I don't want to lose her." I say truthfully with a huge ass grin on my face.

"I'm happy for you bro, maybe you can actually get clean and stop taking drugs and drinking." He says the last part pretty fast.

I start laughing, "Yeah sure, in your dreams buddy." Jack doesn't like that I do drugs or drink but he knows that he can't stop me so he just does it with me anyway.

"I'm serious dude I'm tired of doing drugs and drinking all the time. I'm tired of having to bring you to the hospital too. I know you haven't been to the hospital in like a month but I don't want to keep running away right after like we did today. I just want a normal life." I'm I holding him back from doing what he wants to do? Am I that bad of a friend?

How do I just stop doing coke? I haven't been taking it for that long but it helps me with my pain. I feel so guilty that I'm doing this to my friend, I want to say sorry but something in me says to just lash out at him and yell at him.

"Sorry that I like having fun. If you have such a problem with it why don't you just stop? It's not like I'm forcing you to do it." I'm cringing at my action. Why did I do that, I'm so fucking stupid.

He turns his head to look at me. He looks so confused and annoyed but I can also see sadness.

"I'm not even going to try and explain why I'm still friends with you, okay? Let's just forget about it." He goes back to facing the road and turns the radio louder. I just scoff and lean my head on the window.

"You're the one who started it," I mutter so that he can't hear me but since the music is so loud he wouldn't be able to hear me anyway.

Skip

"Are you going to get her?" We've made it to Jacks house and we haven't said anything to each other since.

"Yeah." Is all I say and I push the car door open and make my way to Y/Ns side.

I careful open her door, making sure she doesn't fall out and I pick her up bridal style. She looks so adorable in my arms and I just stare at her for a few minutes.

"Dude come on already." I hear Jack call me annoyed. I just roll my eyes and walk up to him.

"How do I get into your house, it's 12 o'clock you moms supposed to be home," I whisper-yell trying not to wake Y/N up.

I start to feel her shift and I start to tense up. I feel her arms reach up and wrap around my neck and I try to reposition her so she's comfortable. I feel her legs wrap around my torso and her face snuggle into my neck. I place my hands on the bottom of her thighs and I can hear her soft snores once again. I feel the heat rises up my neck to my face and I can't help but have the biggest smile on my face. I see out of the corner of my eye at Jack with a small smirk, then the guilt comes back, because I treated Jack so poorly but no matter how much guilt I feel I can't take the smile off my face.

"Okay just stay out here and I'll distract her then you can sneak up the stairs into my room." Jack quickly explains to me. I just nod my head and watch Jack unlock the front door.

He walks in and I watch him walk into the kitchen I just stand by the door frame. I don't hear anyone so maybe she isn't here. I hear footsteps coming closer to Y/N and I and tense up and hold her close to me. I instantly calm down seeing Jack peek his head out of the kitchen doorway.

"Lucky for us, my parents aren't going to be here for one month." Jack smile. I sigh in relief and smile back.

"You can lay her down in the guest room." He says pointing upstairs. I know what you may be thinking why don't I just stay in the guest room when I sneak into his house? Well like I said his parents don't like me so it's safer for me to stay in his room.

"Okay, thanks." I walk up the stairs carefully and walk to the guest room that's right next to Jacks room and push open the door with my foot.

The room is dark due to the currents being black and them covering the only window. The room was pretty bland, there's a queen bed, a dresser, and two bedside tables. I walk over to the bed and gently place Y/N onto the bed. I place my hand underneath her head and I feel her arms slowly fall from my neck. I place her head on the pillow and stand up straight I look at her sleeping peacefully and I can't help but stare at her. I place my hand on her cheek and bring my face close to her, I place a gentle kiss on to her cheek. I pull away and start heading to the door.

I turn to the door but then I feel something tug at the bottom of my shirt. I turn my head and look at the bottom of my shirt. I see a tiny hand latched onto my shirt and it continues to tug. I look at Y/N and her eyes are closed, a small smile makes its way onto my face and I fully turn my body to face her. While she's still tugging on my shirt and I take her hand into mine and rub my thumb over the back of her hand.

"Lay with me." She mumbles still sleepy. I let out a little chuckle.

"But I'm not tired," I say in a teasingly tone.

"I don't care I want you to lay with me." She says in a pouty voice.

"I don't know? Maybe if you say please." I have a stupid smug smile on my face and continue to tease her.

"Fine. I don't care anymore go hang out with Jack." She let's go of my hand and turns over so her back is facing me. My smile fully drops and my heart starts going faster. Shit did I do something wrong?

"No wait I'll lay with you." I place a hand on her side and try to turn her to face me.

"Nope, I don't want you to." She says stubbornly.

"I was just joking, please. I'm sorry." I'm really starting to panic. What if she hates me?

She turns to lay on her back and she looks up at me with a big toothy grin on her face.

"You big idiot. You're so cute, of course, you can lay with me." She starts to giggle and I can't help but giggle too.

"Okay scoot over meanie." She moves so that I can lay next to her.

"You're the meanie, you were teasing me." She smiles.

I just laugh and lay down. Y/N moves so that she is straddling me, with both of her legs on either side of me. My cheeks start to heat up again and my heart is pounding. She then leans her head down so that she is close to my face. I just stare at her Y/E/C eyes and she stares back. She moves more down so that she can lay her head down on my chest. I hope that she can't hear how fast my heart is beating.

"You don't have to be so scared you know." She says with her eyes closed.

"I'm not scared, it's just you're so beautiful you make my heart go whoosh." I laugh. I am never this sappy but she just brings something out in me and I don't know what.

She just smiles and grips onto my shirt. As I slowly feel myself drift off to sleep I wrap my arms around Y/N and I feel at peace. It's been so long since I have felt this way towards a girl and I've missed it. I just hope she doesn't hurt me like she did.

A/N: So idk if people even like this book I hope you do but should I continue to write this story?