//you don't know me//finn Wolfhard

chapter 12 - i was mean but so were you

My vision is blurry from all of the tears and I can't think straight. Why couldn't I just be left to die, this would have never happened if I was dead. I feel the vibrations of the car. The road is free of cars and I have a terrible pounding in my head. I push on the gas and I can feel the car shaking, it's strangely calming, I push further down. I feel the adrenaline pumping through me, and the drugs flow through my veins. I grip the wheel tighter.

"Y/N, b-baby slowdown." A smile comes onto my face and I push further down.

"Y/N this is not funny, slow down." I start to laugh.

"Do you really want me to slow down, come on let's have some fun." I push all the way down on the gas and I start laughing like crazy.

"Y/N STOP, YOU'RE CRAZY!"

"I thought that's what you liked about me, THAT I WAS FUCKING CRAZY! I THOUGHT YOU WERE CRAZY TOO, BUT TURNS OUT THAT YOUR JUST A PUSSY!" I see the main highway come into view and my smile only grows.

"Okay baby you have to stop right now this is not going to end well if you don't." I turn to him and my tears keep falling.

"I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO FUCKING STOP." I start hitting the steering wheel and screaming.

"Y/N YOU NEED TO SLOW DOWN."

"WHY? WHY DO I HAVE TO SLOW DOWN I COULD JUST KEEP GOING UNTIL WE HIT THE HIGHWAY THEN EVERYTHING WILL STOP, RIGHT?"

"Y/N if you don't slow down then YOU will kill a bunch of people who don't deserve to die now fucking stop."

"You're so mean." I slowly push on the break, the car gradually gets slower.

I just want to leave, why won't anyone let me leave. I let my foot off of the gas and continue to slowly push on the breaks. I haven't had one day of peace, every day just keeps getting worse and worse, why won't my suffering end.

"Pull over to the side of the road." I grip the steering wheel and turn to the right side of the road and slowly pull over. I hear Finn get out and I just sit in the driver's seat and silently cry.

My door flies open but I don't even flinch, "You have to get out." I just sit there ignoring his words. I hear him sigh and he leans in front of me and unbuckles my seat belt.

"Y/N get out please." My mood suddenly changes and I'm annoyed. I roll my eyes and push myself out of the car.

"There, you happy." I give him a sarcastic smile.

"What do you mean am I fucking happy, no I'm not fucking happy. I almost died because of a stupid girl." My blood starts to boil.

"Guess what that stupid girl you're talking about is your girlfriend." He rubs his face and sighs.

"Oh, you have nothing to fucking say now do you. You're such a fucking pussy dude, you can't handle a little fun are you serious?"

"Look I can handle fun-" I cut him off.

"No you can't, every time we have been close to getting caught by the cops or dying you have chickened out. You said you were too crazy for me, but baby I'm basically joker no one's crazier than me." Suddenly his hands come around my neck and I'm pushed up against the car, my feet still touching the ground.

"Do it, do it I fucking dare you." I smile at him. His face has the mixture of confusion, worry, and anger. He takes his hands off my neck slowly and brings them up to my cheeks.

"Why are you still so fucking perfect." He says looking into my eyes. My eyes water and the tears are coming again. I take his hands off my face and grab onto his torso and bury my face into his chest. His arms come around and hold onto me tightly.