//you don't know me//finn Wolfhard

chapter 10 - tell me you're mine

When he comes out of shock he gently pushes me away. I slowly feel the guilt seep in and I turn to look at Finn then it all washes away. It's his fault. He looks hurt, confused, angry, and betrayed. I look back at Jack and he looks confused. The guilt comes back, I ruined our friendship. Fuck.

"Why did you do that?" He asks looking down not daring to look at me.

I open my mouth to explain but no words come out. I can't control my emotions. I look around and I can't concentrate on anything. Everything's a blur and I feel like I can't breathe. I push through the crowd of sweaty bodies. It's so hot I feel like I'm suffocating.

"Hey Y/N where are you going?" I look to see who called me and it was the blue-eyed boy Jaeden. I just shake my head and mumbled an inaudible response. I can't think, all I need is to go outside. I make it to the door and push through it gasping for air. I feel the cold night air consume my body and I instantly feel at peace. I go all the way over to the side of the road and sit on the curb. I take a deep breath and slowly breath out. I need to have a pill.

I slowly get up and walk back to the house where there are a bunch of people outside on the porch. Maybe I could ask around someone has to have something. I start to slowly ask people if they have any ecstasy and I finally get my hands on some. I mean I had to pay like 40 dollars but I don't care I just need them. I put two on my tongue and wash them down with vodka, I save the rest for later.

I feel that familiar feeling wash over and I feel completely at ease. I want to dance and let go. All of the confusion, sadness, and disappointment completely wash away. Happiness comes and I want to let go. I walk back into the house and I immediately spot Finn. He doesn't see me yet but I see him. He looks like he's going to kill someone, I see Millie trying to talk and hold him but he keeps pushing her away. I feel a smirk pull on my face and I make my way to the dance floor. I start to dance along with all of the other high or drunk people.

I feel completely in my element and I just want to dance all night. I sway my hips to the music and I feel my body get hot. I feel two hands on my waist but I don't care I just continue to dance. The person starts to dance with me and I don't really mind maybe I can get have even more fun tonight. I feel them pull me so that my back is pressed up against their chest so I sway my hips and bite my lip. I hear them grunt and a smirk grows on my face. I go to turn around but then feel someone yank me by the arm away from the person. I stumble a bit and everything is blurry. I feel my body immediately tense up and I pull my arm out of the person that grabbed me.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I look at the person yelling at me and my jaw tightens.

"I'M HAVING FUN! WHY DID YOU STOP MY FUCKING FUN!" I yell back at him.

"SO YOU KISSING JACK AND THEN PRACTICALLY FUCKING THIS GUY IS FUN TO YOU?!" At this point, people start to surround us but we are too busy yelling at each other to care.

"DON'T FUCKING ACCUSE ME OF FUCKING SOMEONE! I DIDN'T FUCK ANYONE I WAS DANCING!" I hate it when people accuse me of shit I didn't do.

"YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO DANCE WITH ANYONE LIKE THAT EXCEPT FOR ME!"

"WELL SORRY TO FUCKING BREAK IT TO YOU BUT I HAVE DANCED WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE LIKE THAT AND HAVE DONE MORE, SO DON'T THINK BECAUSE I DANCED AND KISSED YOU THAT IT MAKES YOU SPECIAL. YOU'RE LIKE ALL OF THE OTHERS."

"OH, SO YOU'RE A FUCKING SLUT YOU SLEEP AROUND." He now has an amused smile on his face.

"DON'T YOU FUCKING CALL ME A SLUT. YOU DO THE SAME THING JUMP FROM GIRL TO GIRL AND FORGET ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS, AT LEAST I DON'T LEAD THEM ON!" I push his chest and walk out the door, once again I feel the cold air consume me but this time it doesn't calm me down. I make it halfway down the road away from the house when I feel someone grab my wrist and stops me from walking away.

"LET ME FUCKING GO FINN!" I try to yank my wrist out of his hands but he just held tighter.

"NO, WHY DID YOU KISS JACK AND WHY WERE YOU GRINDING ON THAT GUY WHEN YOU KNEW I WAS THERE!" I just stare at the ground and don't make eye contact with him.

"TELL ME Y/N!" I look back up at him but I can't focus on his face.

"WHY THE FUCK WERE YOU FLIRTING WITH MILLIE WHEN YOU KNEW I WAS WATCHING?!" I yell back at him.

"JUST ANSWER ME!" I turn my attention back to the ground.

"LOOK AT ME Y/N!" When I don't listen to him, he grabs both of my wrists with one hand and grabs my face so that I could look at him.

"Answer me." He says in a stern but quiet voice. I see him look me in the eyes and his face looks concerned.

"Are you high? What are you high on?" I feel his grip on me loosen and I pull away immediately. I push him back and start to hit his chest with my hands. I punch and slap him as hard as I can to show him how much pain I'm in.

"Y/N." He doesn't try to stop me from hitting him he just lets it happen.

"THIS IS YOUR FAULT THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT. YOU SAID YOU LIKED ME. YOU SAID YOU FUCKING LIKED--"The rest of my sentence get cut off by a sob leaving my throat. He grabs onto my forearms and just holds me there. I continue to slap his chest but not as hard.

"Y/N baby please stop." He pulls me closer.

"NO DON'T, DON'T CALL ME THAT." I start to slap his face but not hard. I feel like I can't breathe.

"Y/N you have to calm down, you have to breathe." He grabs onto my hands gently and just stares at me.

"I can't-- I can't b-breath." I feel like I'm going to pass out. I feel Finn pull me into his chest and place my ear near his heart.

"Do you hear my heart? Just listen to my heart and focus on my chest going up and down." I close my eyes and grip onto his shirt tightly. I hear his heart beating and I feel how his chest is slowly rising and falling. He strokes my hair and I feel myself calm down. As I calm down I start to hiccup.

He slowly lifts up my face so that he can stare at me. I feel his thumbs wipe my cheeks and my cheeks feel wet. I bring my hands up to my face and wipe my cheeks with my sleeves. I haven't realized the whole time I've been crying, no sobbing.

"What are you on?" He asks me again.

"Ecstasy." It's not worse than what he likes.

"Why did you kiss Jack?" He decides to change the subject.

"Because you hurt me, so I hurt you. Why Finn? Why did you hurt me? This is your fault." I look at him dead in the eyes.

"What did I do?" He says looking dumbfounded.

"Oh that's rich you don't even know what you did wrong. Finn, you acted like me liking you was funny, like I didn't even matter to you, was all you said a lie?" Even still he has his hands on my face but I don't move them.

"I like you Y/N a lot--"

"Well, you have a funny fucking way of showing it." I interrupt him.

"Let me fucking finish. I like you a lot, so much that it scares me. I've liked only one person this much but they hurt and left me, so this is scaring me. Even our 'relationship' was shit. She would sleep around with other guys and would forget about me. But I still loved her I couldn't let her go."

"Finn, I'm not the type of girl who does that. I hate cheaters. Yes, I kissed jack but we aren't even dating. I do things on impulse I don't even think about the outcome. I mess shit up and all I think about is revenge. I have terrible anger issues. Why-- why do you like me?"

"Because you are the most spontaneous, most amazing, most beautiful girl I have ever meet and I hate everything I've ever done to you. I don't like Millie at all, I only see her as a friend and if you don't want me to hang out with her then I won't hang out with her. Just please don't leave me." I stare into his beautiful dark brown eyes and look at all of his tiny freckles. I can't stop myself from pulling his head down and kissing him. I kiss him with so much passion but it's not a hard, rough, kiss it's soft and meaningful, telling him that I will never hurt him.

"Tell me your mine," I say breaking the kiss and pressing my forehead against his.

He chuckles, "I'm all yours' princess."

A/N: short chapter but I really like this chapter and I don't want to ruin it.