//you don't know me//finn Wolfhard

chapter 26 - what!

Finn Pov

I've been at this party for a couple of hours already and it's fun and all but I kinda want more. I've already seen Millie but we got separated by her friends, Jacks somewhere around here but I don't really care where he is right now I just want to get high.

I push through a bunch of people trying to find Millie, she has to have something with her, I look above everyone thanks to my weirdly long legs and I see the top of Millie's head. She's with some of her friends. I place my hand on her shoulder and pull her lightly so that she looks at me.

She looks up and smiles at me, "Hey Finn, are you having fun?" She grips onto my arm and her friends giggle behind her except for one redheaded girl, she rolls her eye at their immatureness. I mean are they in seventh grade, like Jesus.

"Yeah, whatever but do you have anything?" I give her a knowing look, she opens her mouth and nods.

"Yeah, I have some come on let's go to the bathroom." Her little posse giggles again.

"Jesus are you guys twelve years old?" The redhead walks away from us annoyed. I snicker at her comment.

"Whatever, come on Finn let's go." She pulls my sleeve and drags me to the stairs.

I feel someone grab my wrist and I stop in my tracks, "Finn wait, we need to leave." Jack look concerned and worried.

"What do you mean? The party's just getting started." I turn back towards Mille and head up the stairs.

"Finn, i'm being serious, we should leave. If we don't then things might not end well." Maybe I should listen to him. He looks really serious.

"Finn, come on, I have what you want." I really want to listen to my friend but I need to have a high right now, I really need it.

"J-Jack, I-I really need it, like really."

He looks at me with disbelief and shakes his head, "You know what fine, go ahead and kill yourself I really don't care anymore. I've tried so hard to help you but I just can't do that anymore, I can't keep putting you before me. I was doing so fucking good man but I ruined all of that because I was scared for you I was worried about you, so i'm done. I'm done, man. Don't come around my house, don't try to call me, don't even say hi to me if you see me in the streets. I'm done with you. Bye." Jack turns around and starts walking away not even looking back.

"Wait!, Jack, man! Come on!" What the fuck just happened, everything happened so fast? I don't know what to do?

"Finn, forget about him, you don't need him. You have me, come on let's go." I feel a small hand grab my own and pulls me.

"B-But--"

"It's okay come on." I shake my head, I want to get all of the bad thoughts out of my head.

I let Millie drag me up the stairs.

Did I just lose my best friend? I'm so selfish. I lost my best friend and my girlfriend, what is wrong with me? Why can't I just be a good person? Fuck!

"Finn? Finn!? Finn!" I snap my attention to Millie, she's waving her hand in front of me.

"Y-Yeah I-I'm here."

"Okay well, you go first." I look down at the counter and see a neat white line ready for me.

"Hey, some people are in here!" Millie shouts at someone but I wasn't paying attention to what was happening.

I bring my face down to the white powder, just like I did a couple of days ago.

The powder burns as it shoots up my nose but I keep going. This will help me forget. Forget about everything.