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sixty-two.

예순둘

     jungkook looks at the mirror, then down at the toothpaste and brush in his hands. squeezing the tube he pours the paste onto the brush and shoves the toothpaste back to the drawer. he's gotten messy, he wasn't like that. but his life has never been  messier and now, it doesn't even matter.

     it's ten in the morning and jimin is still snuggled into his bed because, one, it's so fucking cold and two, he can't get himself to work. he has his laptop sitting beside him alone with the book he needs to translate but whenever he starts working his brain, his fingers won't work and he can't get himself to be of use. he feels numb. all he does is sleep, bath and eat takeout. he was never his careless. but now who cares?

     no one. none of them.

     once those windows were always open along with their hearts but now, they never do. the curtains are always on and their hearts, they're closed, and occupied and yearning.

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     he hears the knocking and expecting nobody goes on to open the door. it's someone he least expected.

     "we need to talk," yoongi says, voice serious and firm. he's wearing a suit and jungkook knows he came to talk to him instead of going to work.

     "there's nothing to talk," he mutters walks back inside keeping the door open. his actions are inviting yoongi in, contradicting his actions. jungkook has always been good at contradicting himself.

     yoongi says nothing but follows jungkook's to the couch, sits opposite to him. "you've been busy."

     "yeah," jungkook mumbles, looks away. he's itching to know about a certain person, itching to know how he is doing, does he misses him are he does, or has he already moved on.

     "your debut song," yoongi starts, smiles, "it's not about a girl, is it?" he points out the music video.

     jungkook furrows a little before nodding. "i had started working on the song long before i met him. but the song never felt complete until he came and along came the feelings."

     yoongi smiles. he can see it. he can see through him and those feelings. "the reason i'm here is to know your side of the story. i know it hurts to talk about but can you fill me in?"

     "do you know his side of the story?" jungkook asks, leans forward keeping his elbows on his knees.

     "i do."

     jungkook looks away for a brief moment, thinking. "are you trying to help us?" yoongi is about to speak but jungkook interrupts and says, "because i know you like him."

     yoongi sighs. "listen kid, jimin.. he's an adorable person and yes, i like him but c'mon it's not like i'm in love with him. it's just he is lively and i'm always liked someone who's talkative, lively and someone who's emotional. jimin was all that. and it's the only reason i came into liking him." he smiles sadly. "but now he's none of that. he doesn't talk, isn't lively, he's not even as emotional. he's numb. and i can't watch him like that."

     jungkook gnaws at his bottom lip. jimin wasn't doing well. it is a mixed feeling. one is bad because his love is suffering but other is good because that meant jimin still has feelings for him. "so you want to know how i lied and hurt him?"

     "it can be the other way round too. i know you've been hurting too. you're in love with someone who doesn't want to believe in it even though he already loves you. it hurts. i understand why taehyung takes jimin as the victim and you as the cause. but don't blame him because he has seen the worst parts of jimin's life, has been a reason of it. taehyung is just over protective." yoongi is smiling assuring and jungkook feels relieved. there's someone who knows that he was hurt too. "so tell me how much you are hurt?"

     jungkook pours his heart out, start to the end. he expresses himself. and somewhere interior he knows yoongi is going to help then for good. he has hope again, hope to be happy, hope to be with jimin, hope to fall in love without being afraid.

❝he understands the pain of both ends. that's the real cupid❞

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     a/n: sorry for making you wait for so long. but i had things to deal with :')
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