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forty-nine.

마흔아홉

     he feels his arms caressing others as they slide down and hold those little fingers between his. he can feel shorter's heavy breath against his neck. he looks beautiful, always has. he has his chest pressed against jimin as they heave. all jungkook wants is to lean and kiss other's exposed neck. the loose t-shirt has slide down his one shoulder and his collar bone is on show. in such a cold whether and they both are sweating, all messy and gross but jungkook loves it. they both do.

     jimin smiles when he catches jungkook staring at him through the mirror. he turns around and kisses his cheek. "you did well." he looks down, a little bit shy and a lot proud. "i'm so proud."

     jungkook smiles like a little child being praised. "it's in two week. i'm excited," he smiles, it's a nervous one. "but scared."

     "you'll be so good," he pauses to smile, "so so good." jimin has jungkook's fingers tangled with his and he squeezes them, assures the younger boy. "how is the shoot going on?"

     jungkook sighs, thinks about it. "it's tomorrow and.. and," he fumbles, "fuck, i'm so nervous. i've never acted in my life ever."

     jimin nods slowly, pulls him to sit against the mirror. "what is the song about?"

     "it's a love song." jungkook says, smiles slightly. "i have to act along side an actress."

     "do you," jimin stops, debates and asks, "do you need to kiss her?"

     "no," jungkook laughs, looks at jimin who's slightly tensed. "i don't. just need to hold hands, maybe hug and stuff."

     that's good," jimin admits, smiles sheepishly.

     "it's for you." jungkook says. "the song. it's for you."

     "for me?" he furrows. "but what about the girl?"

     "it's a gender neutral song. you know i can't come out as bisexual." jungkook caresses older's small fingers, it's soothing for both of them.

     jimin looks up, shocked. "i didn't know." but he remembers the time he had seen a girl's shadow from his window. he remembers.

     "foes it matter anyway. i like you," he admits and fuck it comes out so naturally, he doesn't believe that he admits it. he wants to admit and accept all of his true feelings but the guilt underneath him is painful. and looking at those beautiful eyes that he's falling for, he melts, awes and all he wants is.. to tell him the truth.

     but he doesn't know how to.

❝it's never easy❞