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twenty-nine.

스물아홉

     "i shouldn't have had ditched him. he must've felt bad," jungkook mutters, fiddles with his bike's keys.

     "sure would have but―"

     "he hasn't even called me, hyung. he should've had called me. why hasn't he called me?" and now he is gibbering. "should i call him? i probably sh―"

     "kid." hoseok slides a drink across the table. "are you picking up feelings for him?"

     jungkook takes the glass between his palms and takes a thick gulp. "no, but i feel bad. not bad for him but the fact that i'm enjoying whatever the hell i'm doing with him." he stops, puts the glass to his lips again, emptying the glass. "he likes me. i don't. but i act like i do. i'm being so so.. bad."

     "that's why i've called you here tonight. we need to get to the next step before he gets too attached. the team is performing tomorrow night at the downside club. that's where your next date is going to be. show him what he's been missing. show him the dance." hoseok squeezes jungkook's hand, assuring as well as asking for the assurance. "he may get difficult when he sees the dance but i know you can do it."

      "what about when he recognizes jackson?" jungkook asks, looks at older's hand caressing his.

     "jackson won't. jaebum is going to lead the team," he says let's jungkook's hand go and gobbles down his own drink.

     "you'll be there right?"

     "if you need me."

     "i do, i always do."

     hoseok smiles, sees how tensed jungkook is and knows that he is his support system. the younger boy gives him a reason, a reason to live, a reason to do well. he is his lifeline as well, he just doesn't admit it. "then you know i'll be there. although i won't be able to help much because you're the one who needs to take care of jimin."

     "your presence is more than enough." he confesses, smiles. hoseok can see the slight fear that the boy has in his eyes but he doesn't ask.

     a part of jungkook wants to talk about it. a part doesn't, it is worried that he'll feel.

❝i don't wanna feel❞