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sixty-nine.

*forgive me for the sap

예순아홉

     "stop him," he says lowly, looking at the door ajar as silence engulfs them.

     jimin doesn't move. he's stuck, shocked, hurt and confused. jungkook thinks jimin bought things to pleasure himself, he thinks he has a thing with yoongi and the most important that has been imprinted on his head. jungkook is hurt and is trying to move on. he still loves him. he loves him despite the way jimin had reacted upon hearing the three words. he still loves him and he can't seem to believe.

     "fucking go and stop him!" yoongi yells and it brings jimin back to motion. jimin makes a run, doesn't know what he's going to say, doesn't know if he wants something or not, doesn't know what his emotions mean. all he knows is jungkook is hurting and it's because of him.

     he reaches out to him when jungkook about to enter his house. "kook!" he shouts, cries to stop him from shutting the door. and being the loser he is for jimin, jungkook stops. in proper words, he freezes. he actually didn't expect to be followed.

     "what?" he asks, expressions numb and unrecognizable. he waits for jimin to catch his breath and asks again, "what do you want now?"

     "what's already mine," jimin says and for the first time in years his speaking from his heart.

     "i'm not yours," jungkook snaps, he's angry. he has every right to be.

     "but your heart is. you lo―"

     "yes, i fucking love you!" he yells at jimin's face, not being considerate at all. "i love you. is that what you want to hear? does it give you pleasure to know that i'm such a loser to―," he chokes. he chokes so hard he's about to cry but taking a long breath, he calms himself. he can't cry in front of jimin.

     "i didn't order it. i had no idea about it," jimin says, his voice low and soothing. "taehyung and yoongi, they come often to visit―"

     "why are you telling me this?" jungkook mutters, annoyed. he's struggling and jimin wants to tell him his daily routine.

     "you have to know why they come. i'm trying to bare myself here." jimin steps closer, hands on the door frame and too close for jungkook's liking. "i can't work or sleep or eat. look at me," he gestures to himself and jungkook can see how weak he looks. "all i've been doing is thinking about you and crying," he laughs bitterly. "i've never been like this y'know? i dated some girls, taehyung and then some guys. but no one made me as miserable as you have."

     "i'm sorry," he's apologizing and he doesn't know why. jungkook can see tears pooling smaller's eyes and it hurts.

     "don't," he laughs again. it's so bitter jungkook can taste it. "you came in like a hot crush, fooled me around but made me feel so special, and then suddenly you loved me. i couldn't believe it and didn't want to believe it because i was scared. my parents left me this fear of love and i can't get over it." he steps closer, hands on jungkook's chest. and this time jungkook doesn't feel the need to throw up, he welcomes it. "you changed it. i still don't want to be in love but here i am.. so much in love and i can't help it."

     jungkook stares as jimin's tears slip down his cheeks but he is smiling. he is smiling big. "can i kiss you?" jungkook asks, face still poker.

     jimin nods, gnawing at his bottom lip. "please." he's pleading even though he doesn't need to.

     the taller wraps his one hand around older's neck while the other palm touching his cheek. tilting his head just a slight bit, he swoops in. he has jimin's upper lip between his and can feel shirt being scrunched between older's fingers as he is being pushed inside the house. jungkook is quick to close the door and then push jimin against it as he kisses him open mouthed and messy. his one hand slips down to jimin's thigh and he pulls it up, groaning at the foreign contact. jimin gasps and lets jungkook slip his tongue inside his mouth and touch his. it's messy and wild and exactly what jimin needs.

     and between all this wildness jungkook confesses, "i love you." to which jimin tiptoes to grant younger's lips with a soft touch.

     "i love you." his eyes crinkle and disappears. and when he looks up at jungkook looking at him with such fondness, he presses his face to his chest. wants to disappear because

     he can't believe he's actually and openly in love.