DESCRIPTION: Everything had been so perfect for Noah and Amanda until it was time for one of them to leave. (post-season 4)
WHAT TO READ: N/A
DATE PUBLISHED: 17/01/20
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday
Noah's POV
The day before our final routine at regionals (the one we lost with), Amanda had seemed fine. Sure she wasn't going to be in the final routine, but she seemed alright - alright even to maybe even watch our routine.
But she didn't.
She disappeared.
After our talk before I had to go on stage, Amanda stopped talking to me and everyone else on the team. It was concerning, but I thought that perhaps she needed some space after not performing alongside us all.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday came suddenly
It happened so soon. Cassie was supposed to be the one watching on from the wings, but at last minute Riley decided it had to be Amanda. And although I've never been in Amanda's position, I understand the hurt and heartache she must have felt.
It was stupid of me not to notice how she was feeling at the time, and that's why I keep blaming myself. Maybe if I had cared for her emotions and her reaction, things would've been better - Amanda would have stayed and we could still be on A Troupe together.
Together. Something I'm not sure we even are anymore.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
She left with no answers, left me questioning why she'd do such a thing. I felt like it was partially my fault, not realising how she was feeling and comforting her - as any good boyfriend should do.
I wasn't a good boyfriend to her...I let her go without stopping her. And now I have no idea where she is. But I do know one thing: why she won't answer my calls. Heartbreak. Loss.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe in yesterday
The day before she was taken out of the routine, we were so happy - she was so happy. We'd finally be able to perform in the finals together since we couldn't at internationals. But as fate would have it, tragedy struck twice and yet again we couldn't perform together.
Now I'm not even sure we can be together.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
I had always blamed myself. Always knew that I could've done something different, said something different, just to make Amanda stay.
Months down the track I continued to believe that until there was finally an answer to all my calls and texts:
Amanda: it's not your fault Noah.
seen 8.30
a/n part 1 of my two-part finale done. The next part will be coming later today, but before that, I will be updating my Bohemian Rhapsody fanfiction, 'In The Year'. It would mean a lot if you would check it out before I post the final chapter of this book.
Let me know how you felt about this chapter, and continue to let me know if you'd like a part 3 and what you would like to see from it.
