Crushed {ON HOLD}

The diner

BROOKE'S POV

I'm anxious for this 'hang out.' I didn't know what to wear so I went with high waisted denim shorts and a tight tin fabric tshirt that said 'stay classy,' with my tennis shoes that were secretly wedges. I let my hair fall down in natural waves and had simple make up on. I walked into the Diner, where we said we would meet, and I saw Sean. He was wearing a V-neck with a flannel over and grey skinny jeans. It made him look...

Ugh

I can't put it in words.

I walk over to Sean and he embraces me in a hug. I hug him back and smelled his cologne. I felt like I was on cloud 9. I released the hug and he escorted me to a table. A waitress came up to us and was trying her best to flirt with Sean. He was completely oblivious to that and just told her his order I was trying my best not to choke as I was silently laughing.

"Okay cutie coming right up." She turned to me.

"And for you?" She said with the most disgusted look on her face.

"I'll get the regular cheeseburger but hold the pickles. Also can I have a water?" I said batting my eyelashes innocently. Then when she looked over Sean I just rolled my eyes.

"Of corse you would get that." she rolled her eyes at me.

"What are you implying? That I'm fat? Sorry that I dont starve myself just to fit into little and tight clothing just to looking like a slut for guys." I smirked and she gasped. She walked away.

"Wow... I guess she deserved that though." Sean chuckled. I smiled.

"I'm having a really good time Brooke." He stated.

"Yeah me too this has been a really good date." Right when the words left my mouth I instantly regretted it.

"I mean... not that it's a date.. I mean unless you want it to be but it can be optional. We can just be hanging out or it could be a date... I just I don't know if it was meant as a date or not. Dates are tricky." I said taking a quick drink of my water.

God Brooke way to fuck everything up. How about I lead you through this date. The little voice inside your head will probably do a better job than you.

Oh great now I'm talking to myself.

"Um it's okay no worries." He smiled at me.

No worries? What the fuck does no worries mean? Is this a date or not?!

"Um will you excuse me for a second?" I asked nervously. He nodded and I went to the back of the diner. I did the only thing I could think of.

"Hello?"

"Taylor! Oh my god I'm freaking out! I'm totally screwing this up! I still don't even know if it's a date or not! First we were just talking and we were having a good time and then everything just went downhill! Don't even get me started on the waitress or the little voice inside me hea-"

"Brooke. Slow down. I have a simple question. Are you high?" She cut me off to ask me if I was high? seriously?

"No I'm not high Taylor! I just need help I'm totally bombing.... whatever this is."

"Make yourself irresistible." She said simply.

"What?"

"Figure it out. I have to go bye." She hung up before I could say another word. That bitch.

Did you not hear her? Make yourself irresistible

Will you shut up already?

I walked back to the front of the diner to see that Sean already had the check and was ready to go.

"Do you want me to take you home?" He said while we were walking out the diner.

"Um I would love for you to do that but I brought my car hear..." I said nervously. I looked up at him and he smiled down at me, leaning in. I wanted to lean in too but the only thing going through my mind right now at this minute is Shawn. I don't know why but it was just all of the sudden. I pushed on Sean's chest and I backed away. He gave me a confused face.

"I'm sorry Sean. I like you but I don't think anything is going to happen between us. I don't want to lead you on and then dump you and seem like a total slut." He sighed

"It's okay Brooke I understand. Do you think I can at least have a good bye kiss?" He asked hopefully. I laughed and gave him a quick kiss on the lips. Ot was nothing compared to the kiss I shared with Shawn. I Walked over to my car and headed home.

~*~

Today is the day that I go to DC for Magcon. I put on a pair of high wasted jeans. a t-shirt with a lacy see through back and Dr. Martins. I put on a black beanie that says gypsy.

I'm on the airplane seated next to Matt. He says something I thought he wouldn't say.

"I don't know about you but ever since you left last year I couldn't stop thinking about you. I remember that kiss we shared in truth or dare and I remember the fireworks I felt. But I know you're not into me like that but that doesn't mean I won't stop trying." He said looking at me. I didn't know what to say. I just stared at him with my lips parted.

It's like a rock song. I want you to want me. so this should be easy shouldn't it?

I realized now that I might still have feelings for Matt.

Why the fuck is everything so complicated. I'm still considering becoming a lesbian.

"Hello? Brooke?" Matt said grabbing my attention.

"Huh oh um... That's sweet Matt but things are really complicated right now and I think I should focus on my career first and then boys. That okay?" I asked him. He just nodded. Looking like a sad puppy.

"Wanna watch agents of secret stuff?" I asked him. his mood lightened and he nodded, smiling.