The Photographer | Jyatt

|Chapter 19|

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FINN

"Jae, come on, let us out!" Jack pleaded.

"No!" Jaeden refused. "Not until you two talk!"

Jack and I glanced at each other for awhile.

"I don't hear talking!" Jaeden scolded.

"Alright, alright" I gave in.

I say down and Jack sat beside me, awkward tension filling the limited air between us.

"So, what happened?" Jaeden queried once we got settled.

Jack glanced at me then sighed.

"When you and Wyatt left to your house...Finn and I kissed"

"WHAT!?" Jaeden shouted. "And you assholes didn't tell me?"

"We didn't get much time! And we didn't want you to worry, it's complicated" I explained.

"Hmm" Jaeden grumbled. "Continue"

"Well, everything was fine at first" Jack retorted and shot me a glance, his eyes reading hurt. "Finn said that he had feelings for me and we kissed. Then that night he decided that we should just stay friends"

He scoffed.

I glanced sheepishly at my feet.

"Damn...well, Finn, why did you do that? If you like Jack, why don't you want to be with him?"

"It's complica-" I started, but Jack cut me off.

"I swear to God, if you say it's complicated one more time, I'm going to punch you. What is so damn difficult to explain, huh? Why can't you just-"

"Because I love you, dammit!" I shouted, and Jack searched my eyes curiously. "I love you, Jack. I fucking love you so much. But I'm a shitty person, Jackie. I don't deserve you. I'm sorry, I just...I want you, but I don't want to screw this up. You're everything to me and if I lose you...I lose myself. And I know that somewhere down the line I'll probably end up hurting you, and you're the last fucking thing I want to lose or screw up"

"Finnie" he cooed, and cupped my face. "Why didn't you just tell me that?"

"Because I was scared" I croaked. "I'm so scared of losing you, Jack. You're so beautiful and amazing and kind and...I don't deserve you. I'm just not good for you"

"Finn, I love you too. I want this. You won't hurt me, you won't lose me, ever. I'm not going anywhere. You're an amazing guy, Finn. I love your heart, and your voice and your laugh and your smile and how you protect and take care of me. I want this, Finn. I don't care how complicated it is or might get, I still want you. It'll be okay. You do so fucking deserve me, you're a great guy, Finn, you deserve to be happy"

He searched my eyes pleadingly and I smiled.

"You sure this is what you want?" I asked as I cupped his face.

"Finn," he whispered, "you're all I want"

I stared at his lips before he smashed them into mine. I kissed back, tenderly and hungrily as he gripped my curls. I pulled him by his waist closer to me, our chests touching, and deepened the kiss.