*take me to a place far from here.
far from the world,
far from tears.
take me to a place, bright and full of smiles.
far from the dark,
far from the pain.
oh, i don't really like people all over me.
you can say i'm isolating myself,
but that's what i am really doing.
i hated attentions,
i hated compliments,
i hated small talks,
i hated fake smiles.
you can say i'm a narcissist, i only love myself,
i think it's better than hurting someone else.
lies, lies, full of lies.
byes, byes, yes i'll say goodbye.
past, past, it's keep going back.
memories, keep piercing me. (*)
pain. i don't wanna feel it anymore.
i'm afraid, being left all alone.
yeah, i get attach way ~ to easily
but that's before, i got a strong grip of myself now.
i trusted too much, yeah i get hurt twice as much.
i cried, yeah, i cried myself every night.
i developed social anxiety.
i'm afraid to talk outside my zone.
i'm getting shicers whenever i'm alone.
walking in a busy street, some eyes on me.
i hated it so i'll hide myself in a corner.
building a wall, to keep me from intruders and whores.
locking myself up, to ignore the sounds of unpleasant stinging words, that makes me hurt.
scars, scars, yes the wounds are now scars.
high, high, my walls are getting higher.
me, me, i am getting so stronger than i ever thought i did. (*)
i'm working on my own world.
none of the dark nor the void were.
i'm not lost anymore.
i'm stuck in the positive side.
i'm stuck in my own happy vibe.
getting quiet as days pass by, but it doesn't really matter. (*)
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it's a draft too. 😂
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SHITTY SHITS
Non-FictionA collection of my poems and unfinished songs about depression, my fears, betrayal. Or more likely, my Journal :) "The other side of the innocent girl you looked up to." *** Highest Rank: #2 in Non-Fiction *** P.S. Contains sensitive topics. If yo...
