Breathe [jungkook]

12: Rough

Jungkook's p.o.v

"Who are you ?" 

I looked down into her eyes that seems inflated with fear. Her brows arched up like a puppy that been scolded by its owner. For some reason, it makes me irritated. 

I've never seen this side of Haeri before. She seems so.. vulnerable and scared.. and I've never seen her like this. 

I've always had seen her very firm and composed, calm and collected. This kind of things won't scare her. Better yet, she would push me off and scold me for acting cocky and narcissistic. 

My jaw clenched and my face tightened at my thought. 

"You never like this.." I breathed, but it seems she heard it since I felt her tense below me. Those very detail action made me clenched my hand around her wrist more. 

Why is she like this ? What is she trying to do ?  

Is she trying to make me feel sorry for her ? Does she want me to grow fond of her ? Is she trying to take part in my heart ? 

Why are you not pushing me ?!

"Hurt..." I heard she said almost inaudible.

"What ?" I accidentally snapped, making her pulled her chin in, in sense of security. 

"My w-wrist... It's hurt." She stuttered out, and I heard the deepness in her voice, weighing by the sobs she seemed to hold in her throat. My eyes softened at how scared she sounds. I sighed and pulled myself off her. 

I saw her pulled her wrists to her chest, facing her back at me. I just realized that she's been wearing only her towel on her, not that I didn't realize at first. I just forgot the fact that she literally naked under me with only a towel around her, untucked at that, so I could see her exposed back at me(not entirely). My face went to shades of red after that.

Now I feel really, really bad. 

I looked around to find something to cover her. I decided to grab the comforter that tightly hugging the bed and cover her body with it. I could hear her silently sniffing since it was only the two of us and the silence between us. 

Guilty biting over me as I bit my lower lips, debating If I should apologize for my action earlier or not. Was this a good time for me to apologize? Should I just let her cry, calm down first before I explain why?

I honestly don't know what to do. 

The guiltiness was overwhelming me, so I decided to walk out of the room, giving her space instead. 

I walked out the house, hand was searching for certain something in my back pocket. I took it out as I finally got a grab on it.

I put the butt of the cigarette inside my mouth and lit it up with a lighter. I took a sip and blew it out while gazing the stars in the sky. I closed my eyes.

I don't want to feel anything toward her, but she makes it hard. She makes me feel things, and she didn't even realize that. 

I have to stay away from her.


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Haeri p.o.v

It's been a week and we're already on our back home. All those while after the incident, I'm trying to not communicate with him; I avoided him a lot.

It's hard, especially when he didn't apologize for what he did to me. It felt so awkward between us, but for me, I felt scared.

Scared that one day, he would realize that I'm not Haeri.

That night was as if time had stopped for awhile when he asked who am I. I was positive that he knew that I wasn't Haeri.