Human |lashton|

f i v e

~ l u k e ~

today its ashton's funeral. it's a horrible day. black rain clouds, cold, windy. i just hope it doesn't. start raining till after the whole funeral.

nobody showed up to ashtons funeral except me, cal, mikey and ashtons mum, brother and sister. this made me so fucking upset. why the fuck did nobody show up?

when we went out of the church and walked over to the cemetery it started pouring. the rain was so heavy it broke ashton's mum's umbrella. everybody had an umbrella except me. calum offered for me to go under his but i declined. this is the last time i am ever going to see the love of my life. the last fucking time. it's my final farewell to him.

i know ashton is in a better place now. his in heaven with all the angels. when ashton was on earth he was an angel without wings, now in heaven he can wear his wings and show the world his an angel. and i truly believe that ashton is my guardian angel. his looking over me right now trying to tell me that everything will be okay. it's not going to be okay though, i just can't do it without ashton.