The Garden Of Larry

From some sort of 'special place'.....

(Harry)

Today is Valentine's Day. Most find joy in taking their loved ones out for a fabulous dinner or romantic gesture of some kind. I for one find this holiday to be unimpressive. For one, I can't see any of my loved ones today and I'm all alone and single this year. On the other hand, it does provide chocolates at a moderately cheaper price to devour while crying and watching The Notebook. I think this year I was supposed to watch that with Louis but I'm not sure because the holiday schedule is still in the apartment with Louis. That means that I have to improvise this year alone.

This year I have decided to try to find a date though. As of right this very moment, I am in the mall buying some chocolates for a date I've found online. Not really the best and most trustworthy place to find a date, but it'll have to do for today. This time I have decided to go with a blonde date. She has brown eyes and is fairly tall. That's good because I don't want to date another female Louis-look-alike thank you very much. I pay for the chocolates and drive to her house to pick her up for the date. I hope that she likes to eat out because I'm not one to make dinner at my place unless we've been dating for a year atleast.

I pick up my decent looking date and we arrive at a nice restaurant just out of town. I've been here plenty of times but it feels weird to be bringing someone else here. This date should be interesting. I wonder if she likes steak or is a vegetarian? My thoughts are interrupted when I park in front of the restaurant. It's just the way I've left it last year. I would have taken my date somewhere else, but I had made this reservation for Louis and I ages ago and it would be rude to back out of my reservation.

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I have now realized that my date is kinda crazy. She instantly asked me if I would have babies with her and if we'd be married by next month. Seriously, who does that on the first date? She ordered only green stuff and told me that eating red makes people fat. That doesn't sound right at all, but okay. I was sure that this girl had to be from some sort of 'special place' to think that.

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I'm currently sitting in the waiting room a few seats away from Lou. He's sitting next to the guy I saw the other day. I've found out that his name is Colton and, by the way they were dressed when they got here, I'd say they were on a date. It's weird to see him with someone else. I want to be the one to comfort him, but Colton is already doing that. I make a mistake and he gains more people to comfort him? I wish I had atleast one person on my side to show me what to do to make this right.

I sit there in silence for a moment until I think it's safe to say something. He's got his face in his hands and I remember he did that when his mum had been in the hospital. He did that because he was worried, stressed, and trying not to cry. I feel like I should maybe hug him, but I know I'm part of the reason for him being in so much pain. I don't think that he'd want a hug from me. But Colton left to get him something to drink, so maybe I can? I'm about to attempt to hug Louis when Niall comes out from the bathroom and sits down next to him.

Colton comes back and both Niall and Colton attempt to make Lou more calm. I just wish there was something that I could do to help in some way. You can't fix a problem if you're a problem though. Just then someone calls the name Stylinson.

Both Lou and I whip up our heads to the direction that the name was called and answer at the exact same time.

"Yes?" We both look at each at each other confused until we remember that we both share that name. It's awkward because Colton stiffens a little. We're told that Anthony will be alright and Lou hugs Colton in relief. They all leave together and I walk out of the hospital alone. I'm sick of being alone.

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I find that it's almost like I'm in high school. Louis' the popular one, Colton's a jock, and Niall is popular too. I'm the main character in the movie that has a crush on the boy that doesn't know I exist. I miss when Louis noticed me. I feel so helpless. The helplessness feeling makes me feel helpless to stop it which just continues this helplessness cycle which never seems to end. I'm rather pathetic, I think.

In high school I was the loner type. I didn't have any friends other that Liam, and I was ignored. It got so lonely to the point that I even wished I could be atleast bullied. But that never happened. All I wanted was to be noticed. That's when I met her. She was this really pretty girl that probably wouldn't notice a guy like me.

When we started dating things started to change. All of a sudden I was a 'somebody' and other girls noticed too. At first I thought I liked all the attention I was getting from all the girls, but then I realized something. I didn't really care much for girls. I seemed to like boys. Did that make me weird? I thought so back then. So, I decided to keep that to myself.

It wasn't until I had a crush on Will that Liam noticed. It had all happened suddenly and even I didn't quite know what was happening at first. Li seemed to almost make fun of me about it the first two weeks. Then when he realized that it was hurting me, he stopped. It's not like I planned to crush on Will. It was just one of those things that happen to help let you know something. Will was the key to open the closet that I never realized I was even in.

Flashback

"Hazzy, mate, just admit it already! You are gay or something, yeah?" He was frustrated that he didn't understand me anymore. I was frustrated too. I didn't even understand myself anymore.

"I'm not sure I am, Li. Maybe you can like both?"

"That would make you bisexual, I'm pretty sure."

"How many sexuals are there?" I asked. He facepalmed.

"You mean, sexualities, Hazzy, and I'm not sure."

"Well, I'm pretty sure I like both."

"How sure are you?"

"Well, I have a girlfriend, Li."

"Doesn't mean anything. I could purposely by a turkey to have, but that doesn't mean that I'm turkey-sexual or turken-sexual because I like both turkeys and chickens." I looked at him completely lost.

"What are you even talking about?"

"Basically, you could be gay."

"I don't want to be gay, people will hate me."

"Hey, I won't hate you and the haters can go F themselves, okay?" I nodded.

"If I say that I'm gay, will you help protect me?"

"If you truly think you are, of course I'll protect you; always." 

End of flashback