I wrote you something

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by whoisms

by whoisms

Erika's perspective

We both got into his huge and new car - well, I had to crawl in, but I managed.

"I can't get over how big it is," I slurred and closed the car door behind me.

"It's the same height as the Jeep," Shawn smirked.

"Shut up, its not."

"Yeah, love - it is," he laughed and we left my campus. We didn't say much during the car ride, but this time the silent wasn't uncomfortable but actually quite comfortable. My head rested up against the window and my eyes just watched the people we drove buy.

"You okay, E?" Shawn asked and taught a piece of hair behind my ear. I turned to face him and nodded. Shawn send me a soft smile and reached for my left thigh. I loved and hated this, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach, but my head started to hurt a bit from all the over thinking.
Finally we reached the garage, which belonged to the building Shawn lived in. All I could think about at the moment, was to pass out and do absolutely nothing for the rest of weekend.

"Let me," Shawn said and stopped me from carrying my bag. I couldn't help but send him a stupid smile and laugh at bit.

"Thank you," I said after all. He tugged me in, with his free arm and gently pressed his lips against my forehead.

"Are you gonna go talk to her?" I asked when we got into the apartment and sat my bag on his dresser.

"Yeah I have to," he replied. I nodded and watched him leave the apartment we just entered. Never did I think I would doubt Shawn and what he had promised me, but right now I did. It was impossible to have been with someone, for so long and not gain any kind of feelings for her.
But I was also too tired to stay up and wait for him to get back within the next hour.

I woke up the next morning and felt really good, never had I slept in such a good bed before. After I had tried to wake up, I turned around to face Shawn, but to my surprise there was no Shawn nor signs of him. Did he really stay at hers all night.
Suddenly I felt more stupid than ever, more played and even more hurt. How on earth could he stand there and tell me how much I mean to him and drive off to end it with her, but then not end anything at all, expect the trust I had for him.
Quickly I whipped away a fallen tear and got dressed. I wasn't staying any longer than I had to and since Shawn wasn't even here, there was no one to hold me back, nor keep me from leaving. I was so glad I hadn't unpacked anything, so I could just grab my bag and get the hell out of here.
I got down the stairs and still no sign of Shawn, he did really stay at hers the entire night. I left his apartment more angry and hurt than ever before.
Just as I was about to press the elevator button, the doors opened and out came Shawn.

"Where the fuck have you been, Mendes?" I yelled and pushed him as hard as I could, but he barely moved.

"I went to the grocery store?" He questioned and held up to bags. Suddenly I felt really stupid and even more confused.

"You where out when I got home last night, so I didn't wanted to wake you up! Just like you were out this morning," he explained to me

"I thought you stayed at hers all night," I answered with a very low voice. Shawn's face softened and he pulled me into him immediately.

"You don't have to worry about her, I'm yours!" He assured me and dragged me back into his apartment with him and all the food he had bought. I sat on a barstool watching him, while he was unpacking.

"I'm sorry," I mumbled and fought the tears that was ready to slip out of my eyes. Shawn looked at me, clearly not understanding why I apologized.

"I'm sorry for doubting you. I'm sorry for messing everything up. I'm sorry for always taking the easy way out, and just leave you. I'm sorry for letting you down multiple times, and I'm sorry for all the times I've mistreated you, Shawn!" I cried and gasped a bit for air.

"Don't say that, Erika! You never mistreated me nor let me down - you could never!" He replied and cupped my face, while wiping away the many falling tears from my blank eyes.
I locked my arms around his neck and pulled him close to me. It seemed to always work, having him close to me, when I was upset.

"I actually wrote something for you," I sniffed and grabbed my phone from my pocket.

"You're perfectly wrong for me,
and that's why it's so hard to leave.
All the stars in the sky could see, why you're perfectly wrong for me.
Oh, you know how much it hurts, every time you say you love me. But when we make love, you make it worth it! I can't believe the places you take me.
Oh, and I can't resist, when you're up against my skin, I never wanted to let you go." Shawn mumbled, while reading it.

"You wrote that?" He was in complete surprise and did not really know what to say. All I did was nod and pulled the sleeves on my sweater out, so I could hide my hands with them.

"You're unreal! This is amazing, love!" He admitted all excited and couldn't stop smiling, even though every word I wrote was really sad.

He was a weird kid!

"Can I please use it? I'll note you as one of the song writers!!" He begged and made me laugh.

"Of course, I wrote it for you," I answered. The smile that was already on his face, grew even bigger and he pulled me into a hug.

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A/N: it's honestly a bit scary how well some of the new songs fits this story! So ofc I'm gonna take advantage of that and use a lot of them, heheh xx