whispers and mutters • blasnique

Chapter Nine

UNIQUE

"FUCK!"

"I have a bed." Said Zild, all weirded out with the sudden outburst of behavior and rage of mine.

I roll my eyes at the fucker. "You don't have to fucking say that, dickwad. Why do you have invite Blaster?!" I shout, "Is that your fuckin' problem? No, right? He's just a friend of yours anyway.. right?"

"'Kay then. Seems like he's more than a friend to you."

"The fuck did you say?" He looks back at me with an angered face, stepping closely to me slowly with his index finger pointed at me.

"Ah, nothing. Nothing at all." I smirk, regaining satisfaction at the sight of him pissed off. I chuckle on the insides looking at his face, but tried my hardest to remain a straight face while looking at him directly in the eyes.

"I'm not fucking gay, okay? Now, shut the fuck up, will you?" He says, pressed and irritated. I look at the immensely angered and pissed off guy with a plain face.

"Yeah, you're not." I give him a plain smile, a fake one rather. "I'm not."

Getting into fights with Zild has been the norm for me now and having to clean up the mess HE has made has been quite a chore for me now. I'm not sure why the fucker has been like that, but I just choose to ignore it - well, not really ignore.. I still get into little catfights with him.

However, seeing Blaster get slowly attached to the guy has been killing me already - and I don't really know why.. Every single goddamn time I see them talk, it's like I have to deal with these little heartbreaks that I just go through and I can't even accept that I'm feeling that way - and it just kills me.

I'm not so certain if Blaster likes Zild or whatever, but I'm certain I'm seeing hallucinations.

I've been seeing a woman whose been around me for quite some time now and I can't stop thinking about her ever since.

It's like she's been stuck in my head and I can't get her off my mind. I can't stop thinking about her and I can't her stop the mere fact that I'm seeing her almost every single time whenever I think of something else.

Who even is she?

Fucking hell. I need a cigarette right now.

***

The party already started like an hour ago and I'm still sitting at the same damn chair I sat on the first minute I came to Zild's house.

Everything just feels so slow paced now that I'm sitting in the dark corner of Zild's house, all lonely with no one else with me.

A drunk guy obviously high on Marijuana approached me, and at least two girls have already asked me to make out with them but I rejected their offers then regretted it the second they left me alone. I guess it would be much better having to hook up with at least one of them probably on the guest room just to keep me entertained for the meantime.

"Hold up, everyone!"

I heard Zild shout in the crowd. Everyone, even the music started to pause for a bit, a moment of silence lingering around the room and the atmosphere too.

The loneliness was already silent enough and the literal silence made it worse.

"Blaster and Crystal's in the house!"

I felt my heart beat faster by the second I heard Blaster's name escape from Zild's mouth. It felt like my world has crashed down all on my body - my hands are shaking, my body's twitching, my heartbeat's fastening and my mind's just being a complete mess.