Double Trouble

chapter 20

I sat on the ground, against the white walls, thinking about how I'm putting myself through shit just because I am still in love with him. Just like the day I said the words " I love you".

But all that love seems to backfire on me. Every time i think he loves me or cares and I have hope, I always fond him in situation like this. And im sick of it.

I checked the time on my clock and sighed. Time for practice.

I put on my shorts, shingaurds, socks, then my practice jersey. Soccer is the only thing that will keep me sane at the moment. It will distract me from this whole thing, hopefully. I looked in the mirror and lwt out a breath. "don't let it get go you" I said to myself and grabbed my bag and phone and cleats and headed out the door.

As i was heading downstairs, I saw Ethan. " hey Misa." He smiled a toothy smile and I smile back. Its neber a full moment with him. " hey E."I greeted and he walked by my side to the car. "I heard what happened." He said and my mood shifted completely. I nodded and he continued. " too bad I wanst there to get my dribk." he pouted and I laughed. " I got you tonight?" I said with a smirk and he nodded his head. " okay." He said with a laugh and I laughed as well. " so where you headed?" He asked leaning against my car and I sighed. "Soccer practice. Then psych until 2..." I yawned and his eyes went wide. " damn. Ill swing by around 2:30 then. If that's okay?" He smiled and I nodded. " yea of course. See ya." I said my goodbyes and so did he. Maybe he can help me with this whole situation. If its not awkward.

***

"Misa! Through ball to the right corner then follow up for the cross!" My coach yelled at me. I knew the drill, I was just put of it.

" king over here " he waved me over and I sighed. " yes sir." I asked and he sighed. " misa, you're here becsuse you are the best striker and mid ive seen in a while. Whats up with you?" He asked and i sighed. " its complicated." I said looking at my water bottle. " you got 2 minutes to tell me whats up. " he said. Coach always was kind. Always helped keep out spirits up, but sometimes he can be a hard ass and not give a shit. "Saw my bestfriend with the boy I used to date in his dorm today." I said and he gave me a look. " me and him have history. Like a lot." I said and he perced his lips into a line. " king, remember the 7 B's okay. Boks Before Boys Because Boys Bring Babies." He said holding up 7 fingers but I bit my lip. " you see coach thats the case... He got me pregnant." I confessed and his eyes went wide. " misa what the fuck you shouldn't be playing." He whsioered harsh but I shook my head "no a year ago. They didnt make it." I said looking down and he let out a breath." Sorry. Okay um... Yanno what to home early. I understand. But this is the only time." He said and I smiled. " thanks coach." I said lowly and he patted my back. " tomorrow is training. YOU can choose to come. If you don't ill understand. But you ahve to make up those days." He said and I nodded my head. I grabbed my things and headed home.

***

It was about 9pm, and I had 2 hours until class. Coach let me go home early so I deal with this shit, and trust me I am. I didnt go home immediately, instead i went over to Ethan's. Which of course is Graysons.

I knocked on the door and waited. Then I heard a bang followed my cirse words. And Ethan opened the door. " did you trip?" i asked and he nodded his head embarrassingly. " got off early, want to get that drink?" I asked and his face lit up. He nodded then went to grab and shirt. I stood there, waiting, when I saw that Grayson wasnt there. I shook away the thpught and waited for E.

***

"Misa not to be rude, but you smell like me after practice." He said scrunching his noise as we droce to Starbucks. " well sorry my sweat doesnt smell like daisys." I said and he laughed. I rolled down the windows and he let out a breath. Then he stuck his head out the window and regretted it. " omfg my beanie just flew off dude." He whined as his hair was stick up in so many directions. I laughed at the sight and he was upset.
"I have one in the glove compartment " I chuckled and he quickly got it and put it on. " you have a small head." He laughed and I looked over. " sorry." I smiled and he did so too.